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Cold Sands ch 31
The Yan army is here!!! :O Are we going to see an old face?
XXXI Besieged
I coolly cast my gaze at the crimson tide advancing
from the distance.
I see a forest
of spears and hear the thundering of hooves. The sun shines on the sharp
spearheads and blades, shattering into icy fractions of light. A blurry, yellow
cloud of sand grows from underneath the horses’ hooves and the red armour seems
to form a sea of blood, stranding the island that is the capital.
Everything
behind me seems to be frozen in place. No one speaks. There are only the increasingly
rushed breaths.
The Lupine
Blood Mounted Squadron—this means I’ll
see an old friend. But I do wonder what expression would appear on that sniggering
face of his when he sees my face.
It certainly is
a small world.
The soldiers
standing guard steadily watch the gradually advancing red sea but the hand and
weapon of a young soldier next to me is shaking nonstop.
The Blood
Mounts are infamous for their coldblooded murder and cruelty. After devouring
twenty thousand men, this bloodthirsty wolf has aimed its mouthful of sharp
fangs at the heart of Great Rui.
My heart is pounding but I don’t show it. “Announce my decree: Do not be alarmed. Civil
officials are to return to their posts and all the soldiers are to make
preparations.” I turn and shout to the crowd behind me. “General Pei!”
Pei Yuan hurries out and gets down on one knee. “Your
orders, please, Your Majesty.”
“Deploy the Golden Guardians and shut the palace
gates; notify the superintendent of the inner palace to secure all buildings
and prohibit all movement! Those who disobey shall face decapitation!”
Pei Yuan rushes off with the orders and the civil
officials leave in an orderly fashion without much commotion. I approach the
ledge and place my hands on the crenel before carefully studying the scene
before me.
“Your Majesty, this place is too dangerous. I beseech
You to step aside,” someone suggests from behind me. I ignore it and summon the
new Minister of Defense. “Get someone to command the army and inform the people
in the capital of my determination
to live and die with the capital! The troops are not to take a single step
back; those who run away shall be shown no mercy!”
He bows in
obedience and I continue, “Have the weapons and equipment been prepared
accordingly?”
He answers with
a calm expression, “In reply to Your Majesty, all weapons have been prepared. I
had made orders for all arrows and swords in reserve to be transported to each
battlement for the soldiers to use when needed.”
I nod with a
smile but drop it right away. I clutch my hands, trying to stop the sweat from
coming out.
I then summon
the Minister of Revenue. “Go post an announcement in the city telling the
people not to be alarmed. You must also take the lead and get all officials to
take care of the people’s living. Tell them that I and the officials swear to
live and die with this city and not leave them behind.”
He lowers his
head but Heng Ziyu interrupts, “I also request that you organize young, healthy
men to transport rock and lumber, and all doctors to prepare medicines for any
wounded soldiers.”
The minister leaves in a hurry with the orders. I and Heng Ziyu share a
smile before looking back into the distance.
The beating of
the metal horseshoes is getting louder and louder and the earth itself seems to
be quaking. Sand is swept high into the air and the numerous flags flap wildly
in the wind. Red cavalrymen in uncountable numbers have reached the city.
The endless red
wave has just stilled when it seems to be split apart by a blade. A perfectly
straight path clears down the middle and two people come forth on horses. The one
farther away is the assistant delegate from the other day while the one in
front of him has a strong build, tall and proud. He’s wearing shiny iron mail
that is glistening under the sun. He pulls on the reins and turns his head when
the horse halts, pointing his gaze straight in my direction.
A violent
shudder runs through me.
That person—that figure—isn’t that Murong Yu?
My mind goes
blank and I step backwards without even realising it.
I think Heng
Ziyu noticed my slip up because he holds me by the waist and warns quietly,
“What’s wrong, Your Majesty? You mustn’t show fear.”
I pant roughly
and shake all over. I don’t want him
to know that I’m the emperor of Rui. Even if it’s just a temporary escape, I
don’t want him to know the current
circumstances. It’s better to not meet at all. I’d rather he think I’m dead.
Right before I
completely embarrass myself, I finally recognize the man—Yuwen Yuan.
My body falls
limp instantly and only by holding onto the crenel do I manage to stay
standing.
It was only a
moment but it felt like eternity.
I adjust my
posture while Heng Ziyu scrutinizes my face with a hint of suspicion. He lets
go appropriately. I close my eyes. All I can feel is my crazily beating heart
and the whooshing wind in my ears.
When I open my
eyes, the delegate is yelling, “Listen up, all of you on the walls! This is the
general of the Lupine Blood Mounted Squadron of Great Yan!”
My throat feels
constricted and I can’t speak very loudly yet. Heng Ziyu steps forth and
remarks, “So you are General Yuwen. It certainly is a pleasure!”
Yuwen Yuan
spits coldly, “Enough chitchat. Get your emperor to come out!”
I’ve calmed
down by now so I pull my helmet down so that it covers my eyes, and lean
forward. “Oh, it is you again!” I shout to the delegate. “Why, did you come
back because you missed our arrows?”
I hear soft, ridiculing
laughter from behind and see the delegate’s face convulsing with anger. Yuwen
Yuan looks up towards me with a smile but his tone is freezing cold. “This is
your emperor?”
I’m not sure if
he recognizes me yet. When I think about it, if Yuwen Yuan knows it means
Murong Yu will, too.
“’Tis not too
late to surrender the city,” he proclaims clearly and emotionlessly.
“And what makes
you think I would do that?” I raise
my brows.
With the
sunlight dancing off of his helmet, I can’t see his expression clearly but I
can feel the intention to kill, nonetheless.
“If you unlock
your gates now, write down your will to surrender and kneel before us as
subjects, we will spare your petty lives!”
I point my nose
into the air. “And if I say no?”
He swings his
spear and points it at me. “Then please pardon our ruthlessness, for it was you
who denied our favour.”
Dropping my
smile, I hiss, “I have no need for
such favours!”
“That voice…” Yuwen
Yuan stays quiet for a bit before bursting out in laughter. “It’s quite
familiar. I would really like to take a closer look at you.”
My heart seems
to miss a beat and I glare at him.
“Yuwen Yuan! Do
not think for a second that the present Great Rui is still a weak, little lamb
waiting to be butchered!” I bark. “No matter how fierce the Blood Mounts may
be, you still cannot fly over the city walls like birds!”
Before I finish
my sentence, Yuwen Yuan has nocked an arrow and he shoots. The arrow zips in my
direction with a twang. Almost instinctively, I turn my head and the speeding
weapon scrapes past my cheek and plants into the wall behind me.
“Your Majesty!”
My cheek is
burning with pain; there seems to be a thin, long cut. Heng Ziyu pulls me back
and a row of bowmen steps forth with their arrows nocked and ready to shoot at
my order. Two teams of shieldmen dash forth and raise their shields in defense.
Warm liquid
drips out and I wipe it off with the back of my hand, ignoring the pain. I
fling Heng Ziyu aside and push my way through the crowd.
“I overestimated your marksmanship!” I
shout while continuing to glare at him. “We shall stay standing until the end,
whether it be battle or death!”
“Release!”
I hear a mass
of twangs from around me and the arrows fly through the air like rain but the
cavalrymen aren’t alarmed. They quickly pull on their reins and retreat in unison
while several hundred shieldmen leap forth from behind. The arrow rain plunges
into their shields, going ratatat
against the steel.
Yuwen Yuan
holds his head high. “You shouldn’t underestimate us, either.”
Suddenly, long
notes of the horn sound. From where I am, I see a large fleet of carts behind
the thousands of cavalry, riding along the gentle curvature of the ground. The
tall machinery is being pulled forward by cows.
“Escalades,” Heng Ziyu squeezes through his teeth.
I start feeling restless when he drags me by the wrist
to climb to the highest battlement. We see the innumerable, red army
dissipating to allow the machines to approach. More and more of our soldiers
have climbed to the battlements, armed and ready for battle.
I take a deep breath and roar, “Fellow warriors! There
is no turning back for us now. Behind us is our home and our families. We must
fight for our home and fight for our families. None of us can take a single
step back. Real men should die on the battlefield; there will only be dead
warriors, not dead escapees!”
“Death before surrender!” they echo.
The horns’ notes abruptly climb higher and waves of
soldiers rush towards the wall. Drums start beating from the battlements and
the bowmen fire their arrows restlessly. The arrows shower down onto the field
before the gate. Using ladders to cross the moat, three warriors carry each
escalade while one pushes it from behind. Yan footmen charge up the escalades
with their sabers and swords while some stay at the bottom to cover the former
with arrows.
Loads of arrows, logs and stone are being thrown from
the walls while other soldiers are furiously engaged in close-quarter combat
with those that have climbed up. The sounds of murder fill the air at once. The
war drums thunder, bodies tumble down the walls, blood sprays out everywhere,
and the painful shrieks become louder and louder.
“Reporting!” Some soldiers run up to me. “An Shun Gate
and An Ding Gate in the north are under critical attack.”
“Reporting! We have spotted Yan cavalry outside Yong
Yang Gate in the west.”
“Reporting! There…”
Worried, I scan in the directions of the other gates.
Although orders and preparations have been made for absolute defense, I’m not
certain it will hold.
The man beside me holds my hand tight and says
quietly, “No need to be alarmed, Your Majesty. Have faith in me, please.” Then
he roars at the messenger soldiers, “Tell them to hold strong or die trying!”
I hear the horns blowing again; it’s the capital’s
warning call. The soldiers shoot, hurl logs and stones at the enemies below and
the Yan footmen tumble down from the escalades. There are many soldiers pouring
boiling tar, too. The field below is wet with blood and flying body parts.
Soon, the moat turns red.
Yet, Yuwen Yuan is patient beyond belief. He stays
mounted on his horse and watches from afar.
Under the arrow shower, several dozen men carry a
large battering ram while several shieldmen clear a path for them. They start hitting
the gate repeatedly. The steel gate shakes and clangs under the assault while the
soldiers inside the city use everything they can to block the gate and keep it
from budging.
More footmen rush forth as soon as the bowmen slow
their fire, and force their way up to the walls. The defending soldiers have
gone into a killing frenzy, hacking down anything that comes up the wall and immediately
filling the gap in the line of defense. When one row of soldiers falls, another
row steadily takes their place to continue the massacre. The Yan also have bowmen
shooting up and soldiers are hit from time to time but more take their place
right away.
I don’t know when this seesaw battle is going to end.
The battle lasts into the afternoon.
Clouds of black smoke shoot for the sky and enshroud
the sun. The shouting, wailing, clanging of weapons and muffled thumps of
blades digging into flesh keep echoing in my ears as the sun appears to dim.
There are battlements for cover but none for the
soldiers out in the plains. Gradually, the Rui gain the upper hand from having
higher elevation. The soldiers ramming the gates have all fallen under arrows
and the footmen are killed before they even get to the escalade. The attack
seems to slow down as well.
The first round of assault finally stops at twilight.
Yuwen Yuan raises his hand and the gongs ring.
The Yan recede like the tide, leaving behind only the mounds of corpses in
front of the city.
After brief cleaning and changing shifts, Heng Ziyu
and I do a head count. The good news is that our casualties are fairly low.
Soon, the food service team climbs up to the
battlements and delivers food and water for the soldiers. The dead and
critically wounded are carried down while the ones with minor injuries are
bandaged on the spot.
Along the way, all I see are broken weapons and limbs
and blood everywhere.
“Would Your Majesty like to return to the palace for
some rest?” Heng Ziyu looks at ease while I shake my head weakly.
I say after looking at the soldiers resting along the
path, “I can at least boost their
morale by being here.”
Seeing their blood-dyed armour and exhausted sleeping
faces, I can’t say much else. The deep, ugly wounds and the rusty blood have
brought me face to face with death and pain again.
Leaving Shang Wu Gates in the north side, he and I go
over to An Shun Gate, An Ding Gate and Yong Yang Gate together. The soldiers there
have also fought fiercely. The limestone has lost its colour from being soaked
by blood and when I walk across it, I feel as if my feet are going to get
stuck.
As Heng Ziyu and I descend the battlement side by
side, the fatigue disappears from the soldiers’ faces and they stand up tall,
their bloody and dusty faces full of liveliness. The centurion orders them all
to stand properly but finds a young soldier asleep, curled up in the shadows.
He seems to be sleeping comfortably with his babyish face hidden in his heavy
helmet.
The centurion is about to wake the soldier when I stop
him.
He’s just a boy and probably still needs a lot of
sleep. The day has been bloody enough so I let him have a good night’s
rest.
Under the gaze of everyone, I descend the stairs. The
eyes behind follow me and I can feel their silent hope and dependence. It’s as
if I have gone back to that night after the bloody battle when someone asked
me, ‘Deputy General Han, are we gonna make it outta here alive?’
I was responsible for three thousand lives then; I’m
responsible for one million now.
I could say that I didn’t know then, but how could I
say that now?
Could I?
No.
Because I’m their hope.
Hope, huh.
I look up at the dying sun. This vicious battle has
just begun but could someone tell me when it’s going to end?
A strong gust of wind as sharp as a blade blows
violently from the plains.
Heng Ziyu whispers from behind, “These soldiers aren’t
very old. The youngest is just over thirteen years old.”
“They came with You, right?” I ask flatly.
He looks conflicted as he sighs, “Indeed, they have.
Some places down south are so poor they cannot afford to feed their children,
so they enlist them in the army so they can eat.”
“The South has always had prosperous people and
fertile lands. How could that be?”
“The land and climate are good, indeed, but it’s
plagued by floods every year. Most of the wealthy people have moved, leaving
the commoners behind. But,” he starts getting a bit angry, “‘Tyranny is more fearsome than a tiger’. The people not only had to suffer the pains of flooding but also
the embezzlement of corrupt officials.”
Startled, I remark, “But I recall the floods being dealt with every year.”
His face darkens. “If it has been dealt with, then it
doesn’t need to be done every year! I couldn’t even begin describing how much funding
has been embezzled all these years under the name of flood relief!”
I feel my sense of hope deflating inside. He continues
as I secretly ball my fists up. “The military and politics are separate and are
not to intermingle, so even if I wanted to do something, I couldn’t. I can only
do my best to take in the sons of the commoners and alleviate the commoners’
burdens.” He chuckles but all I can see is bitterness.
I understand. Those born as a commoner experience much
more challenges than me and can better empathise with the sufferings of the
people.
I’ve heard of the corruption of the government
officials in the South and hearing his words make me feel all the more
depressed. Tyranny is more fearsome than a tiger; the government is more
fearsome than the floods. Now that the North is under attack, it will be the
end if the floods start in the South.
My head starts hurting again as if something is
squeezing on it, making it hard to breathe.
Salvaging the country from the war is only the first
step. There is still a long way to go from there.
Dusk has gradually fallen and the sky is gloomy.
The evening breeze is a bit humid. The pungent smells
of pine oil burning spread throughout the city. Heng Ziyu insists that he
escorts me back to the palace.
“Your Majesty must appear at ease exactly because we
are at war in order soothe the people,” he explains.
I understand what he means so I head back to the
palace without retorting.
The residents that I see along the way all look
high-strung as if disaster is going to strike, while on the other hand, the
palace guards and servants are all working as usual. The attendants come and go
in an orderly fashion, not appearing unsettled at all. I can’t help but feel
relieved. The senior attendant in charge of the inner palace used to work for
the Han clan but later swore loyalty to me. At this time of peril, he has used
his strict management skills to hold the palace together.
I’m still not sure how to feel about the Han clan.
Without their protection, I couldn’t have survived
until this day; without the Hans’ strong basis, I couldn’t have ascended the
throne. However, no matter personally or as a member of the royal family, the
clan is my biggest enemy.
Within me flow the blood of Lin and also the blood of
Han.
I can’t even begin to count the number of people who
have outright requested or discreetly implied for me to get rid of the Han clan.
Yet, despite my tainted hands, I haven’t been able to. My heart hasn’t hardened
completely to be able to withstand all attacks.
In the end, I’m not a coldblooded, relentless emperor.
After getting my wound bandaged and stuffing down some
food, I summon the ministers to my sleeping quarters. They don’t look their
usual graceful selves either and all seem exhausted.
“I have already sent scouts out to see where the
enemies have set up camp and gather information.”
I flip open the list of fatalities with my head
propped on my hand. “What is the total casualty?”
“In reply to Your Majesty, the total comes to two
thousand and four hundred, of which six hundred only suffered minor injuries
and can still be deployed.”
The black ink filling the white pages seems to come
alive under the flickering candlelight. Every name stands for a human being who
was still laughing to their hearts’ content just yesterday but is now sleeping
in eternal darkness.
“Have the walls been cleaned? And are there any
damages?”
“There are thirty-two places of damage and I have sent
workers to repair them.” The Minister of Works pauses before continuing, “Shang
Wu Gate received critical damage and is being repaired with everything we have
got.”
I nod and push the list away. “How are the residents?”
“In reply to Your Majesty, there was a slight
disturbance but the mayor had calmed the crowd. It’s not a problem now.”
“Tell him, he is solely responsible if there are any
more problems with the people.”
The Minister of Personnel shakes a bit before bowing
down.
I wave my hand after leaving more instructions and
they leave. Impatiently, I shut the reports and lean against the desk.
The humid wind blows into the building and sweeps the
curtains along. I spot a faint silhouette coming to a stop before hiding behind
the shadow of a pillar. I smile. What is the old geezer doing this time?
“Master, why are you playing hide-and-seek with me?”
Master Liao steps out after a long period of
stillness. He’s wearing a black robe and looks calm as usual.
“Your Majesty has not rested yet?”
I lean lazily to the side and let my eyes shut
half-way. “I’m not sleeping tonight;
the facade is only for other people to see.” I watch him as he approaches and
sits down on his knees next to me. “You haven’t been around these days. Took a
trip out to the country?”
He pulls a light smile while looking at me. “Just a
trip out to the Blood Mounts’ camp.”
I know his martial arts is extraordinary so I joke,
“Then this war should be easy. If you could go in and just behead Yuwen Yuan,
this whole siege would be over!”
He shakes his head. “The Yan have set up camp thirty li from the city and the security is
very tight. I am afraid it won’t be that easy to take his head.”
He adds after a pause, “The Lupine Blood Mounts
originally totalled fifty thousand. The battle at Luo Yuan already brought them
down to thirty-four thousand and they suffered many casualties today, too. The
arts of war states, ‘the
worst is to attack a walled city.’ Yuwen Yuan choosing to initiate
warfare right away is none other than an attempt to boost morale. They saw how
sturdy our defenses were and suffered such a heavy blow themselves. They are
bound to feel worried.”
I raise a brow. “So you mean…?”
“I would like to think that Yuwen Yuan will not
initiate another offense until their remaining forces arrive. The Blood Mounts
are his bragging right. He isn’t so stupid as to harm it. Plus, if time allows,
a long-term siege is undoubtedly the best option for them with regards to the
one hundred thousand men on their way to the capital.”
I tighten my fist. With an army of over one hundred
thousand, if they just charged all at once, they wouldn’t even need to lay
siege for the twelve gates of the capital to crumble to pieces.
We look at each other. He’s smiling so I ask, “Seeing
your smile, I suppose you have
plans.”
“I cannot say for sure but I had a rough idea of what
Your Majesty wanted to do when You asked me whether the Eidolons could
infiltrate the Yan capital.” He lowers his voice, “Attack where it is not
expected and expose their back and stomach at the same time.”
I drop my gaze, not sure whether to feel happy or sad.
“If Your Majesty would grant permission, I would like
to take charge of the Wraiths. I have done similar things when serving under
the duke.”
I stare at him and ask slowly, “A trip to Yan is extremely
dangerous. Are you willing to do so, Master?”
He smiles calmly. “Your Majesty, I went through a lot
to search for the duke’s son when His Lordship failed. I nearly died in the hands
of the oppression army. My life is no longer mine so please entrust the task to
me.”
After much debate, I fish out the half-moon shaped
pass that Uncle gave me and hand it to him. Master Liao pushes it back to me.
“I only need one letter written by You and stamped with the Holy Seal. This
pass has other uses.”
My hand shakes a little. “You mean…?”
“Yuwen Yuan is not the marshal. He cannot make every
decision. There is only one who can really control the army of one hundred
thousand and that person is Prince Lie, the Prince Royal of Yan.”
I shudder and stop smiling. Master Liao does so too
and says sternly, “There is no ultimate alliance for us. We can cooperate with
anyone. Our enemy in this moment could become our friend in the next.”
“Yes, you are right, Master.”
I write a letter to the Wraiths in Yan at once and stamp
it with vermillion. I hand it to Master Liao and he folds it into his breast
pocket, lowering his head. When he looks back up, he falls to his knees and
knocks his head on the ground hard.
“I have served His Lordship for many years and have
lost regard for my own life. To be able to serve the Eldest today, my life was
worth it. Even if it meant giving up my life, I will gladly exchange it for the
Eldest’s safety.”
‘The Eldest.’ So many people used to call me that when I was young.
“I have two things to say to Your Majesty.”
“Speak.”
“One, I would like to remind Your Majesty that Heng
Ziyu can be a temporary partner but cannot be trusted deeply. Two, there are
thirty Eidolons in Tai Qing Palace. If there is an emergency, they will use
their lives to escort You out of the capital.”
Servants have been replaced all over the palace since
that day when I cleansed the inner palace. Naturally, Master Liao could let the
Eidolons in under my permission.
Master Liao—he is so loyal but he couldn’t
possibly know that I would choose to die with this city if it came down to it.
“You must remember, three claps is the signal.”
I nod. “Understood.”
Am I going to see him again when he leaves this time?
Even if I have a million things I want to say, I can
only say this.
“Take care on the road, Master.”
♚♔
I go back to
the inner hall and take a short nap. In my dream, there are sudden flashes of
blades and war smoke. I can faintly catch the silhouette of my parents but the
next thing I know, the darkness enshrouds them and I can no longer see.
After struggling in the dark for a long time, I
finally blink open my eyes. Covered in cold sweat, I push myself up. The
darkness outside is impenetrable. It’s almost the fourth watch. The fourth watch is the closest to
dawn but it’s also the coldest and darkest time of the night. I don’t want to
get up so I wrap myself up in the silk blanket and lie back on the large bed.
I still can’t recall what my parents really looked
like and I don’t have their portraits. The only way I can see my parents is
through nightmares. How ironic is that?
It keeps getting colder, making it hard to fall asleep
again. I get up and slip on the first thing I see. After a second’s
deliberation, I take down the xiao that
is hanging on the wall.
The night sky is filled with a billion twinkling stars
far and wide. The wind brings chills starting from the feet and creeps up the
legs. I’m starting to regret only wearing one layer and a cape, but I don’t
want to go back so I just keep walking.
Only the whistling wind sounds in the quiet plains. The
pale grey city walls are glowing red from the fires. The night watch soldiers
huddle close to keep warm. Some are napping away in the corners. The centurion
starts tapping their helmets to wake them up.
A centurion wearing black leather armour dashes out
from behind me. I wave a hand and dismiss him. “Not a sound.”
He falters for a moment before leaving quietly.
I pick a quiet place along the wall to sit. The wind
blows in my ears. I run my hand along the xiao,
sliding across the cool instrument and the scores of scratches along its body
before placing it against my lips.
In the limpid night, under the pure glow of the moon,
a soothing note rises from the xiao,
welling up from the depths like the tides and swashing along quietly before
abruptly shooting high over the city walls. Even the howling wind seems to be
frozen in place by the web fabricated by the xiao’s melody.
The loose ends of my clothing get swept up into the
air, attempting to run away.
The notes stop bluntly as another low voice speaks,
“Your Majesty.”
I lower the xiao
and reply without looking back, “What a coincidence, Marshal.”
“What were You playing?”
I cast my gaze off to the dark plains. “Heaven Within the Moon.”
Heng Ziyu draws close next to me. “I didn’t know Your
Majesty was skilled in the winds.”
“Why have You come instead of resting?” I crack a thin
smile.
“It’s an old habit of mine to patrol the premises
while armed no matter the size of the battle. Once in the first half of the night
and a second time in the latter half.”
“Many thanks, Marshal,” I say while facing straight
ahead.
It falls silent until the wind starts whooshing again
and it seems to get colder again.
“The song sounded cold and distant and maybe a little
bit sorrowful to me. Are You not afraid that it will disturb the soldiers?”
“Those being trapped playing the xiao to show ease and confidence, is this not what they want to
see?”
I lean against the crenel and let my clothes flutter
in the wind like a white bird dancing through the heavy gloom of the night. I
have not felt this relaxed for a long time.
“Heaven Within
the Moon—sounds like a song of love and longing.” His tone turns
playful. “Your Majesty, are You longing for Your lover?”
I laugh nonchalantly. Only he would say such suggestive
words.
Lover. Lover.
The same scene occurred a long, long time ago. I was
playing the xiao when he found me.
He, too, asked me
what song I was playing.
The song I played then, Cries of Soaring Swan Geese, was a song of love and longing.
Lover.
This word that has never been enounced will only
be uttered as another word.
Enemy.
The next thing I know, he reaches out and picks the xiao out of my hands. Startled, I turn
to see him looking up from the instrument to clash with my gaze. I can’t tell
if he is cheerful or angry.
“There are so many sword marks. This must be one feisty
woman.”
I don’t want to lose my temper so I stay quiet. He
clips his lips while looking at me. “Could it be that Your Majesty has been
glum because of the owner of this xiao?”
“’Tis the gift of a friend of the past.” I glimpse him
from the corner of my eye. “Also, the current owner of this xiao is I.”
Heng Ziyu plays with the xiao
with much interest. “This is a good xiao.
Probably of excellent make.” He looks up, his gaze becoming more heedless and
his smile more enigmatic. “The woman must be a one-in-a-million beauty, too, to
constantly be on Your Majesty’s mind.”
I falter. One-in-a-million beauty? I guess it’s correct but sadly, that
person isn’t a woman.
“Marshal.” I open my palm in front of him. He smiles at me after a
momentary pause and places the xiao
back in my hand. He lets out a suppressed, cold laugh that reaches far into the
chilly night.
“Your Majesty is already the master of this realm. Why are You always so
doleful?”
I gaze at the empyrean and before I know it, my eyes are wet.
“You know, Marshal, no one would be happy being stuck between dream and
reality.” I slap the xiao against my
palm. “Once upon a time, I had a
small dream but now I have abandoned
it and it will never be within reach again.”
He drops his smile. “You’re the son of God. What could You not accomplish?”
I sigh quietly and close my eyes. “In my
opinion, being that can never make anyone happy. Not one bit.”
Before he can speak again, the xiao’s
notes rise again, slowly circulating in the dark of the night like a crying
swan geese, soaring off to somewhere faraway.
__________________ayszhang: First of the special triple release >o< / See you all tomorrow for ch 32! I noticed the percentage of Heng supporters in the poll has been increasing ;D
dairytea: Waah, I can't help but love both Heng and Murong~ There should be a threesome! DX
BTW, if anyone is having problems commenting via Disqus, please email Dairytea at silverstr114@yahoo.com. Please include a screenshot or detailed description of your experience. Thank you~~~
Chapter 30
Cold Sands - English Translation by ayszhang is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial-ShareAlike 4.0 International License.
First! :D I have to come back later to read this chapter, though :(
ReplyDelete~Michaela
I shall be waiting ;)
ReplyDeleteSecond. ZY wake up HX never gonna be yours as you realized his for our Muryong. And thank you Ayszhang
ReplyDeleteUgggghhhh too much feels :____; And why Master Liao said that Heng cannot be trusted deeply? Why why? And that small appearance of Murong >< Can't wait for the next updates. Thanks for the translation as always. I adore you :)
ReplyDeleteTwo more chapters until Murong's return!! Hope to see Marshal Heng and Murong battle (team Murong all the way! Even Master Liao thinks Marshal Heng can't be fully trusted) And, they must have some good eyesight to be able to see someone's face from high above the wall and probably a good 50 feet away.... Or I'm just blind...
ReplyDeleteThanks for th release!
Hip, hip, hooray for the triple release, and here I thought that I had to patiently wait for Thursday release only. Thank-you, thank-you AZ. Your are the greatest.
ReplyDeleteI feels so, so sad for HX. I think that I had tears in my eyes when HX play a sad, longing song on his/MY xiao.
AZ, do you think YY might feel hate/love/hate for HX because when YY met HX being with the princess, he hated HX, and then when YY fought HX, and HX showed to be on par with YY in skill, YY may be showing admiration/love for HX but then hate HX because MY and the princess showed their concern for HX? What do you think?
Actually i want to be the first but........😒 my work always make me late .
ReplyDeleteYeah. Me too. I want to be first but I lives in a time zone that by the time I get up in morning, get ready to go to work, have a little time to drink coffee looks at the site to see if anything new posted and to read before leaving the house to work, the new chapter is already up and people already read it and commented on it.
ReplyDeleteTo AZ, on your comment of the last chapter believe last night, I get the idea that you live in BC, Canada. If you live in BC, then you should be in the same time zone as me, right? Do you stay up really late to post the new chapter, or do you wake up really early to post it? Either way, I am really amaze that you posted so early.
guess i'm last ??? well *goes to prepare her usual comments*
ReplyDeleteyay! First of the triple release! Thank you!!
ReplyDeleteEldest?? Does han xin have a sibling? Hmm.
Heng seems jealous of han xin's one-in-a-million beauty lover. :)
Omg ! A threesome ! 😳😍 Don't make me dream ! 😜
ReplyDeleteNoooo.... only Murong for Han Xin!!! hahhahha Thank you!!
ReplyDeleteMe too. I believe that Murong is the only one for Han Xin. Though, i do hope too for a threesome cause that would be seriously hot! :)
ReplyDelete:-| i understand you! As for me, i love my sleep more than my desire to read it in the morning. Cause ayszhang, post their translations 6am on the place im living.
ReplyDelete@AZ: thank you, thank you so much for the start of the triple release!
ReplyDeleteI feel sad for Han Xin. He doesnt want Murong to see of what have become of him now but at the same time, he longs for Murong to be there for him.
XD So harsh~
ReplyDeleteYou're welcome!
>A< Be prepared for more feels in the chapters to come!!!
ReplyDeleteWell, he could betray Han Xin any time. There really isn't loyalty involved between Han XIn and Heng Ziyu.
You're welcome <3
Omg of course!!! They didn't have computers/phones to stare at all day long! DX
ReplyDeleteYou're welcome<3
>u< awww <3 thank you for the love
ReplyDeleteI feel so sad for Han Xin 😿 almost cried when he told Marshal Heng "no one would be happy being stuck between dream and reality ... Once upon a time, I had a small dream but now I have abandoned it and out will never be within reach again"😿💔 and my heart went out to him when he tried to hide his identity. I hope Murong will not think that Han Xin betrayed him and hate him for it.
ReplyDeleteAnyway, thanks for translating and sharing this novel with us Ayszhang! 😂
XD You're welcome~~~
ReplyDeleteWhooops, it was originally the duchess' instrument XDDD
Hmmm that is a good question. My opinion (and it's totally speculative) is that Yuwen likes/admires Murong.... The hate towards Han Xin might be real since Han was a threat to Murong's name and reputation. Basically, he thought Han Xin was going to cuckhold Murong because Duchess Xiao is Murong's fiance and she was really close with Han Xin. Other than that...I can't really say what Yuwen feels or his relationship with the other characters.
Hahhaa congratz! :D Keep it up? ;D
>.< that face though!
ReplyDeleteIt's okay. I love you the same no matter what place you are
>A< Sorry guys~ I decided to move it earlier so people on the Eastern hemisphere could read it before the day ended...
ReplyDeleteYesss Vancouver baby!!! PST <3 Oh haha. My circadian rhythm is completely messed up XD but the posting is automatic. There is no way I could post it at exactly 9:00AM EST hahaha. I make the post the night before and edit it and everything and set it to post at the given time. I usually sleep at 5-7 AM PST so you will see me replying to comments at that time <u<
*u* *waits patiently*
ReplyDeleteNooo he doesn't as far as I can tell. "Eldest" also means he is the closest heir to the throne. This is why Duke Yu Qing's baby son is called the Eldest.
ReplyDeleteHahhaha yessss I feel the jealousy in the airrrr
You're welcome :D
XDDD I love seeing the emojis! They look funky on the desktop version of the site
ReplyDeleteWell! We can dream! >A<
You're welcome :)
ReplyDeleteHahahaha yessss. I agree!
The fire alarm would go off from the hotness ~ \ (>_<) / ~
ReplyDeleteYou're very welcome <3
ReplyDeleteIt's such a dilemma :( It's hard for me to translate it too because I try to put myself in the situation and feel the original Chinese words before transforming the feeling into English...so it's like I've lived through his words / _ ;
D': *sniff*
ReplyDeleteThat's a good question. Murong will tell us what he thinks of Han Xin's doings in ch 36 >A</
You're welcome :D Thank you for reading and commenting~
yeeesss more airing time for heng ziyu!
ReplyDeleteOkie dokie, I was finally able to read the chapter! 😚 I don't know why, but I got really excited when Han Xin started playing the xiao. Perhaps I am a little jealous since I have yet to play one. I only have the dizi under my belt, haha
ReplyDeleteFor the love of God, Heng Xin! Make a move already!!! 😆 This foreplay has dragged on long enough...
When Heng Xin was like "The song sounded cold and distant and maybe a little bit sorrowful to me. Are You not afraid that it will disturb the soldiers?”
The band nerd in me wanted to be like "Hush, Heng Xin! Enjoy the music and let the master play!" 😤
How long has it been since Han Xin properly slept? Poor baby 😣
Thank you!!! <333
~Michaela
so Xin still hasnt fall for Heng, seems Murong is still the number one for Xin......ahhhhh touched by the faithful Xin.....love ur triple release ayszhang
ReplyDeleteBahahaha XDD that's right :P
ReplyDelete; u ; I know right? Han Xin <333
ReplyDeleteGlad you like it ;D
>u< hehehe. Band nerd~
ReplyDeleteI like how you focused so much on just that one part hehehehehe
Yeah, I commented at first that she is a duchess, then deleted because I thought that I was wrong and that she is a princess instead. Oh, I thought the xiao belong to MY, and MY had given it to HX.
ReplyDeletehaha, just posted one of nii_san's 'magnificently huuuge comments'.. who remember's this name ??
ReplyDeletei too read all comments, and i come here to check everyday when my turn to use the computer starts, when i am bored i see if there are new comments and secretly read my comments then keep laughing at them (i'm really really out of my mind, i laugh at myself being killed !! Another mysterious thing in nii_san all scientists of the world couldn't solve!!!)
i knew it !!
ReplyDeletei've always thought it was impossible to post it at that exact time, not a minute earlier nor a minute later..
I KNEWWWWWW ITTTTTTTTTTT!! I'M SOOO SMAAAAAAART !!!!!!!!!!!!! ( totally stupid -_-)
hip hip hooraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyy....
ReplyDeletejust wanted to say that too ^^
OMG!, Nii_san, this comment just kills me. LOL.
ReplyDeleteExactly what I wanted to say!!!
ReplyDeleteomg >o< arent you glad disqus doesnt have a word limit?
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Yeah Han Xin's reaction =w= it was kinda sad but cute and totally tsundere <333
I knew you were going to talk about the xiao XD I missed it being in your comments and hitting you around like a baseball :pppp
Nii_san, you just kill me again (LOL X 10 exponent. Tears are coming out of my eyes as I was reading this). Thank-you nii_san. By the way, how many bags of candies did you have today because it seem like your brain is doing the 360 in all directions.
ReplyDeletei didn't even taste one candy this day !!!!!
ReplyDeleteI am naturally a phsyco !!!
i wonder what would happen if i eat sweet ?? should i try ??.. naaaaah , i bet you'll die when you see my comments then.. you're already half dead anyway XDD
Hahahahahahahhahahahahaha (tears) then dying again.
ReplyDeleteyeeeeeep.. like heaven, i can write as much i as i want, and no one will stop me... Gyahahahahahaaaaa (i didn't caugh !!)
ReplyDeletebaseball.. *remembers the baseball comment* maaaaaaan, i never thought that the Dowager would act that crazy !! I was soo surprised!! (as if i wasn't the one who wrote it!!)
ohhh, Xiaooo, how much i loove the Xiaaooooooo... he just has the greatest personnality of themm all (after Han Xin ofc, andHeng when he starts teasing Han, and Murong for... for being Murong ..)
now the reall dead person is me !! it's near midnight here!! sooo i'll have to go to sleep guys .. goood night (or good morning for you??)
ReplyDeletefinnaly, i can get rid of this heat >< (it really isn't that hot -_- it just sucks that i just showered and then i'm all sweaty again)
thenn.. i'll have a sweet dreaams (yeaah, very very sweet, i don't know how and when it started but i get these dreams where we're all talking to each other here, with all the crazy comments! guess i'm always thinking about you <3<3)
Gooooood niiiighttt *gives you a biiiiig goid night kiss*
AZ, why 333333 and not 999999..............? In the world gambling (not that I go gambling because too busy working and not enough pay and cost of living here is so damn high), natural 9 is the highest, right?
ReplyDeleteoh nooo thats just a heart! <3 and <3333 just means a lot of hearts >u<
ReplyDeleteAwww good night! :) Sweet dreams
ReplyDeleteIt's the afternoon where I (And eye44can1) are. Hmm. Now i gotta start working on tomorrow and Friday's posts...and the weekend's mothers day posts! XD
I think han xin really missed his murong yu .. My hearth feel hurt when i read the last part .....
ReplyDelete😔 we all miss Murong
ReplyDeleteThreesome! Threesome! Threesome! :-p
ReplyDeleteI can live with that! ;) ;) ;) its a good thing i live in a house that 2 blocks away from the fire station!
ReplyDeleteSorry, my bad. I did not know that it represents hearts. Thanks for clearing it up for me.
ReplyDeleteIn 36? Hmmmm , thats about a month away. Anticipation is good. My happy hormones on rise now. Would there be some drama & angst theme? :)
ReplyDeleteCh 36 will be posted on the 28th of this month! XD Oh yesssssss. Our two beloved characters finally sit down and have a talk! I think their meeting extends until ch 37 :o I just started translating ch 36 so I'm not 100% sure whats in 37
ReplyDeleteThis could become our chant or motto or something XP
ReplyDeleteNo prob =u= internet lingo can be confusing hehe
ReplyDeleteXD Yeah kind of impossible!
ReplyDeleteOkay, so because your comment was soooo long I forgot to talk about how you read the art of war! :O Omg *applause* <3 It's such a great work and yeah some of it might have gotten lost in translation or there's no context/example. It's like the bible for strategists in all areas, be it war or business. *respect for my old Chinese ancestor*
AND OMG I LOVE BLOOD AND VIOLENCE AND WAR TOOOOO XDDDD but def not in real life
can't wait for another release XD
ReplyDeleteSomeone should write a threesome fanfic for this novel!!
ReplyDeleteThey're sitting down together to have a talk so that's a good sign right?😄
ReplyDeleteYesss please ❤️🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
ReplyDelete3 more hours <3
ReplyDeletehold on a sec... you think Yuwen like Murong???
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we really think the same way don't we??
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you got infected by the nii_san germ ?!
Haha, i bet it's just the fujoshi mind working (it's fujushi for you too riight?? or is another word? well same thing anyway, correpted mins XD)
Hahah fudanshi ;D 腐男子
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