Thursday, June 4, 2015

Cold Sands (Beyond the Frore Dunes) - ch37

Translator: ayszhang
Proofreaders: Gwen, krabbykabbi, Luzo, Pau & Red

Cold Sands ch 37
More NSFW (//o\\)

XXXVII Long Night

My vision is clear at times but blurry at others.

I’m being filled by his scorching passion, being played with almost endlessly. My back keeps rubbing against the rug while I grab tightly onto Murong Yu’s arms like a drowning person.

He is still going strong, even picking up speed. I want to beg him to go slower but the moment I open my mouth, the only things that come out are stifled moans that sound like weeping. He pauses for a bit and plants kisses on my face.

My body is so hot that I can’t feel anything but the numbness coming from my lower half. He’s also burning. He holds me close while he starts to toy with my tongue again. Our bodies are plastered against each other as if we have melted into one.

As he grunts, I feel an explosion of broiling heat inside of me and then I start quivering, entering a zone of lightness. It’s the feeling of sudden freedom and release, and of overpowering pleasure.

He falls on top of me. I take a few pants trying to control my breathing so I can handle his weight.

He chuckles softly. I wrap my arms around him and peck him on the lips.

Exhaustion kicks in and I wiggle in his embrace to find a comfortable spot to sleep. Right when I’m about to fall asleep, he pushes himself up with his arm securely around my waist and flips me over onto the ground.

Any sign of sleep disappear. I realise what is going on very quickly. I’m on all fours beneath him, arching my body, my hips sticking up in the air and legs wide open.

Embarrassed and mad, I whip my head around and glare at him. He laughs and lowers himself on my back, wrenching my jaw around to kiss me.


His hand slides past my hips, caressing and kneading. The sudden intrusion of his massive erection catches me off guard but the moans of discomfort are all being swallowed by him.

“Relax,” he whispers in my ear and laughs provocatively, “It feels amazing for me but I can’t move when you’re this tight, can I?”

He starts to move again before he even finishes, filling me with searing pain. I groan quietly and gyrate along with him.

Despite feeling humiliated, the fire blazes within me, pushing me to the climax. I wish I could just become one with him like this and never part ever again.


I sleep very lightly in that warm, strong embrace of his, faintly feeling his body heat and his muscular arms. I grunt contently and snuggle in closer. He chuckles quietly in my ears and the next moment his embrace tightens around me.

Slowly, I blink my eyes open to look right into his obsidian ones.

Murong Yu is studying me with a smouldering gaze that contains an indescribable emotion within. There are traces of bloody lines in his eyes that hint that he has not gotten a wink of sleep. We both are stark naked right now. Being held by him doesn’t feel embarrassing but rather the fuzzy, sweet feeling in my heart seems to multiply.

His chin rests gently against my forehead. His hand slowly sweeps up from my waist along the spine, caressing me with tenderness. I let out a lazy laugh and discreetly wrap my arms around him too. We just closely flank each other, as though hanging onto one another but also hugging at the same time. We share a silent smile, both too scared to disturb this beautiful moment.

Quietly, he watches me for a long time. The dim candlelight falls in his ink black eyes with only the pupils having a heated glow. My body feels as if it has been ravaged by the ocean waves, thoroughly exhausted. I don’t want to budge an inch or get up.

Seeing that I’ve woken up, he flashes a gentle smile and tugs at the thick cloak around us, wrapping us tighter. His other arm has not left its place around me.

Quietly, I take in his temperature and scent. This is what I had longed for in all those nights when I awoke from fright and all those moments when I was soaked in blood.

The entire world has retreated faraway. The menacing blades, the pungent blood, everything, has been isolated from this space. Here, there is only this snug, peaceful embrace and I actually have some peace of mind that I haven’t had the pleasure of having.

He breathes steadily by my ear, warm air hitting my face—it’s a bit itchy. I look up at him, without a sound, looking straight at the face that I had only been able to see in dreams. I think he lost some weight. His face is even more chiselled than before, even more handsome and sharp. The arches above his eyes are lax and a playful smile dances about his lips.

It’s a weird feeling. I mean, shouldn’t we be clashing at sword’s point, battling to the death right now? Or at the very least, wrestling and howling at each other to rip the other person into pieces.

My thoughts wash over me like the tide. He brushes my face with his, both of us slightly burning. I feel miserable and sweet at the same time. I want to say something but give up right away. This peace is just too hard to come by.

After a really long time, he finally breaks the silence. “Say, Xin, how nice would it be if the sun didn’t rise.”

“Yeah,” I murmur. “How nice would that be…”


We’ve fought and we’ve done it. It’s time to talk business. I can’t stall any longer and neither can he.

I start after much hesitation, “So, are you gonna retreat?”

Straightforward and abrupt, it’s not the tone fit for a peace alliance but I do not need to be shy with him. He probably already guessed what my coming here means.

Expectedly, his lips curve upwards sarcastically. “What choice do I have when you’ve already planned everything out for me?”

I glumly turn my gaze away to the candle off to the far side.

He loosens his arms a little. “Let me ask you something and give me an honest answer.”


“Did you have any other plans coming here to the enemy camp? Or are you telling me you really had no fear? You were that certain that I wouldn’t take you down and initiate a full-on invasion with you as hostage?”

“Yes,” I sigh. “You’re right. I definitely hesitated when I got your reply. But I couldn’t linger on it. I could only take the risk. Plus,” I pause and continue at a lower volume, “I haven’t seen you for so long… I just…”

I shake my head, unwilling to continue, and he just tightens his embrace and leaves it unsaid.

“You just love to do as you please. Think about it. Who else is there to keep the country in check without you in the city? Who else is there to fight back against me?”

I shake my head. “I came and I came prepared.”

He pulls an unconvinced expression after faltering for a moment. “Yeah, right, if you didn’t unite the court and strengthen the defenses in the shortest amount of time possible, Rui would already be destroyed beyond hopes of repair.”

Then he sighs lightly, I’m not sure with what kind of emotion. “Even if you came prepared, as long as I let them see you in front of both sides, in front of the all the soldiers—what would your soldiers think, what would your citizens think then? Your army would shatter into pieces so easily I won’t even need to deploy my men.”

“You wouldn’t.” I stare at the top of the tent.

He stiffens with surprise and only lets out a “huh” after a long pause. He props himself up and looks down at me with playful eyes. “How are you so sure? Enlighten me.”

“Because I believe so. Back when we were still north of South Hill Pass, you were kind enough to give a lord of Great Rui a proper burial and allow the prisoners of war to keep wake for him, so how could you do such a low thing?”

He scoffs. “Still wet behind the ears.”

Murong Yu brushes aside the stray hairs in front of my eyes and runs his fingers down, holding a strand up to his nose. “Water is likely the most important issue in the Rui capital now. What’s stopping me from doing worse things if I could easily poison your water?” He shakes his head. “That man was already dead so he posed no threat to me. He was a lord nonetheless, if treating his remains with dignity is easy to do and gives me a good name too, then why not?”

He leans in, reaching around my neck and softly rubbing it with his icy cold fingers. “If you died—died under my sword—I would let you have a proper end as well.”

His fingertips are so cold that it scares me, the broiling heat from earlier nowhere to be found.

A violent shiver runs through me and his fingers halt, as if they’ve felt my aura of fear.

A few strands of his hair hang down, sweeping against my face. I look into the eyes that still held bits of lust within them. “But how could I just let you do as you please and let you direct me? The only way you’ll be able to, is if I died here.”

His fingertips continue sliding down to my Adam’s apple. “You’re wrong, oh, so very wrong.”

Murong Yu’s bottomless eyes draw closer. “What I want is the emperor and I can accomplish the same thing even if he’s dead. The people in the capital don’t care about you. They care about your status. It wouldn’t bother them whether you were dead or alive. As long as they know that I have the emperor of Great Rui in my hands, I doubt anyone dare defy me.”

He says this in a tone so flat it is as calm as backwater. I feel a bitter emotion exuding within me and I can’t think of anything in reply.

Every single word he utters is so distinct it seems to stab into my heart like knives.

I am the emperor. I am no longer me.

Once again, he has picked open my dried scabs with his sharp words, leaving me dripping with blood.

Seeing that I turned away, he reaches for my face and twists it back around to face him.

“It’s more lonely now that you’re the emperor, right? You were always by yourself then and now you don’t even have someone to pour your heart out to. I couldn’t even believe my eyes when I first saw you. It was just like a pile of clothes lying there with no one wearing it.”

His other hand ventures down along my waist, tenderly caressing. “Here, too, it’s gotten so skinny.”

My vision blurs again from this one utterance.

“Silly you, keeping everything inside and not letting anyone help you.”

“Aren’t you the same?”

In his embrace, I seem to have gone back to that night once more. For as long as I can remember, I had never cried so pathetically in front of outsiders—no, not even in front of my so-called family and friends. Yet when I’m lying in this man’s arms, his mere existence can let me have some peace of mind.

“There, there. Now you’re crying again. Keep it down or someone might come in.” His voice starts becoming shaky, too, as he wipes away the tears brimming in my eyes.

I nod and take a deep breath. “I admit, everything you said is true. But even if you can take down the capital, taking care of the aftermath and the many matters after the surrender will take much time, effort and resources. How will you manage to do that?”

His brows point upwards, changing his expression into a fierce one. “You should know since you took the throne the extreme measures a powerful person must take. I’ve heard a thing or two about what you’ve done: a massacre in the courts, shooting down refugees. The same goes for me. There is only the question ‘should I’ and ‘need I,’ not ‘dare I’ or ‘can I.’ My father has taught me since I was young that one can never be too generous with bloodshed and mercilessness if he wants to reach that almighty position at the top. The blood of the innocent had christened my blade when I was eight. You think I would be afraid of slaughter now?”

He takes a short pause before spitting out with venom, “You want to know how I’m going to tame Great Rui? I’ll tell you how. The day the walls fall and the city surrenders, I will kill every male over the age of fifteen who has the ability to fight back. I won’t spare a single one. I’ll butcher them all. Let’s see you oppose me then!”

I glare at him with a cold look. I know he speaks the truth and I have nothing to counter it.

“The three conditions you proposed, I will accept the first two. Forget about the last one. A princess…” He then shakes his head while sighing very faintly. “So what…couldn’t possibly stall my advances…”

“In the end, we are still on opposing sides.” He touches his chin to my cheeks. The short stubble pokes me, stinging a little.

Seeing that face of his, I can’t help myself from reaching out and touching it. He freezes for a moment before cracking a smile. My fingertips come into contact with his awfully cold skin. Right when I’m about to pull back, he takes hold of my hand and won’t let go.

Our lips brush lightly against one another before springing apart.

“It’s getting late. I should get going.” After the mental battles, and even if I’m reluctant to leave this warmth, I haven’t forgotten what I have come for.

He stays quiet for a while before his hand that is on my hand quivers and releases me. Murong Yu sits up without saying a word, removing the cloak and exposing us to the icy air. I shudder and push myself up from the ground.

He picks up something and slips it on. “Go. It’s already the Hour of the Tiger.”

The rug is strewn with clothes—cloaks, shirts, underwear—some of which are torn and balled up, like the place has been looted.

I pick up my own undergarments, shooting dirty looks at him while I put each of them on. I shake out another piece of clothing and something white tumbles out. Alarmed, I rush to retrieve it but he suddenly darts forward, bends over and picks it up first, holding it up close to examine it. Then he beams at me before approaching and putting it around my neck.

I smile back and don’t say anything.

I remember my own pendant. If only I had it with me now, I could give it to him, but…

Sitting on a chair, Murong Yu pours himself a cup of tea and watches me casually with a bit of mischief in his eyes. He even pushes me, “If you’re gonna get dressed, you should hurry it up.”

I grind my teeth in anger so hard that I can hear it. Screw this. I start pulling everything over my head. Meanwhile, I can still feel his eyes on me even though I’m facing the other way. I tug with annoyance at the pieces of fabric and protest, “Couldn’t you have gone slower? I mean I don’t think these are gonna last through the trip back!”

He remarks as though I said nothing, “Why are you hiding? Not like I haven’t already seen everything.”

This guy can be even more frustrating to deal with than me when he wants to!

When I finally finish getting dressed and combing my hair, I walk up to the table and take out a stack of letters and a half-moon shaped pass from my sleeve. He shows a puzzled face. I explain, “You can take all of these if you want. These are the letters I exchanged with the second prince. I believe they can be of use. This is the pass of the Wraiths which you can use to command the forces in Yan.”

His expression darkens and he stays silent, several emotions playing across his face.

“You really think I’d pull my troops back?”

I let out a deep breath. “That’s your choice and this is mine. There’s no conflict.”

He stares at me dumbly in disbelief towards what I just said.

“The throne is the most important thing for you,” I utter calmly.

Before he replies, I pick up the cloak from the door and swing it around myself. I pull the collar in together, hiding my body. I take a good look at him before turning to the tent entrance.


My feet halt abruptly but I don’t turn to look. “What else is the matter, Your Highness?” I inquire flatly.

The footsteps behind me sound muffled. I think he is coming in large strides. The next thing I know, I’ve fallen into that familiar embrace once again. He snakes his arms around my waist and leans in, placing his lips on my cheek.

“Why must you be like this?”

I turn my head back a little, feeling his hot lips, but I don’t say anything.

“You… You really are inconsiderate and reckless as always, always causing trouble but never cleaning up after yourself. You’ve used my little brother and now you’re tossing him away without a care in the world, leaving this big brother of his to clean up the mess.”

“Isn’t that perfect for you?”

“Still, you don’t have to give me the secret messages. It’d be better for Great Rui if I have a harder time. You don’t have to help me.”

I pull a light smile. “I owe you, but even so, I owe more than I can ever return.”

He shakes and his arms tighten around me. “You yourself are mine. What’s there to owe?”

I smile as tears well up in my eyes. I force them back and just stay there. If only I could be in his arms until the end of time.

For a long, long time, there is only our exhaling and inhaling.

I pat the back of his hand. “Really gotta go now.”

“To do what?”

“I have to take a bath and take a short nap if there’s time. Then I’ll probably get woken up. The day has just started.”

He turns me around to face him. I don’t fight back. He leans down and seals his lips on mine, shakily invading my mouth—so cold, so tender, without any lust, it is just a motion of mutual comfort; desperate, heated and lingering.

It’s so familiar that I yearn for it; I yearn for it so much that I’m succumbing to it.

I grit my teeth and back away. Tears fall down my face and in between my lips.

He takes a step forward, his arms still in the same hugging position, gazing at me.

I whisk around, too scared to see him. I wipe the tears away and walk towards the entrance. I raise the flap and then stop in place, not turning my head back. “Could Your Highness please pass a few words on to Duchess Xiao for me if You happen to see her.”

Without waiting for his reply, I say calmly, “Please let her know, her xiao is still with me. I shall gift her a new one if there is a chance. Also, I thank her very much.”

Outside the tent is still the murky night. The Eidolons and soldiers are standing guard a ways off. The captain comes over and holds the tent flap open for me. I walk out in strides and jump on the horse. The captain lets the flap down and joins me on his horse. The entire party silently leaves from the side entrance like how it came before.

My body is aching but the injuries in my heart are worse. Using the hood of the cloak to hide my face, I let the tears flow free.

Footsteps echo in the long, pitch black tunnel. I’m sore and tender all over and my legs feel weak. Suddenly, I trip and manage to stay standing by holding onto the wall. The Eidolon behind me shoots forth to help me but I shake my head, catching my breath myself.

That bastard never knows where the line is. I’ll excuse him for fighting that way, but he has sex the same way too. My vision goes blurry and I feel like I can fall asleep right on the spot. Nothing is better than some sleep now. Nothing is softer than a pillow.

No. I’m still sticky. The first thing I have to do when I get back is take a nice bath and deal with those obvious marks, the wounds from the fight and the purplish-bluish stuff from his bites… The wound on the corner of my lips starts stinging.

The first thing I see when I come out of the tunnel is Liu An curled up in a ball with his head tucked in. I think our footsteps have woken him up and he climbs to his feet. “Welcome back, Your Majesty.”

I nod weakly. The soreness is beginning to bother me. He trails behind me with his back bent as we walk out Qing Feng Chamber. “Your Majesty, the battle appeared to have died down in the evening. You ordered the palace to be in lockdown so we denied Marshal Heng entry several times, I am afraid…”

“Go ahead and make preparations. I wish to bathe,” I command, ignoring what he says.


The steam rises into the air, clouding my view of the exquisite decor.

Only after soaking in the hot water with the cool, white marble against my back does my body relax a little. The tense feeling suddenly goes away and the soreness and fatigue becomes more apparent with the heat coming from the bathwater. The unbearable pain that accompanied every step I took has totally disappeared but sensation starts to rush back into the numb lower half of my body with the help of the water. Frequent but not strong, tingly waves of sensation make me shudder with every movement.

Cupping the unclouded water with my hands to clean myself, I notice that my chest and shoulders are teeming with hickeys, the bluish and purplish colour appearing all the more obvious. Unknowingly, I rub my neck and then laugh helplessly. I know even without looking in a mirror that this place is probably dark red like I got bitten by a dog.

Soaking in the water makes me really drowsy. I close my eyes, ready to fall asleep in this steamy room.

“Your garments have been gathered, Your Majesty,” a woman says shakily after a while. I blink open my eyes, coming out of my daze, and see a few women holding some clothing on their arms on the other side of the thin veils, their heads bowed low on the far side of the tub.

Although I know they won’t look around recklessly, I press myself lower into the water, letting the liquid wash over me. They put down the clothing and leave after performing the rituals.

I bathe for a little bit longer before getting up. I grab a loose bath robe and slip it on. Only when I see the mirror before me do I discover I really haven’t taken a good look at myself for a long time.

The eyes are still my eyes but something about it has changed.

The same ink black eyes have been shrouded with fog and are no longer pellucid.

I draw near and then I notice after taking a closer look that my face looks bruised, the corner of my lips are torn and there are still bloody scabs on them that seem to be from the fight. Then I touch my neck and there is a ring of maroon that stretches all around it. No collar would be tall enough to cover it.

Shit. Going out like this would definitely…

I’m shaking with fury. That fucking bastard!!

“Son of a bitch. I’m going to kill him one of these days,” I spit venomously. Out of nowhere, I hear something knocking against the ground. I whip my head back to see Liu An kneeling there with quivering shoulders.

I quickly fix my expression to appear stern and dignified. “What is it?”

“Marshal Heng has forced his way into the palace, saying he wants to see You, Your Majesty, and no one could stop him.”

I put the palace under lockdown before I left in the evening with the excuse that I was not feeling well, not permitting anyone to enter, including Heng Ziyu. It’s not surprising that he grew suspicious after such a long time, but to be this heedless and barging in…

Footsteps are heading for me. Alarmed, I put on an outer robe without even taking off the bathrobe. Liu An rush over to help me and just when we have pulled the collar up in an attempt to hide the marks on my neck, the doors swing open.

Heng Ziyu is standing outside the door with a flinty stare. Behind him a poor attendant is cowering behind the door. I cough and pretend to look up carelessly. “Marshal?”

He steps over the doorstep and bows slightly. “I beg Your forgiveness for it is difficult to perform the rituals while in armour.”

I’m starting to feel uncomfortable from his intense look. This isn’t because I am self-conscious but because even this reasonable excuse seems to be a bit out of place.

“Please rise, Marshal.”

He does as he is told and stands before me, his eyes still bright. “How are You feeling?” I nod and stop his inquiries with a wave of a hand. “Fine after some sleep. Give me the report on the war.”

He puts his hands behind his back and briefs me on the situation after a short pause. The Yan’s attacks were unusually fierce after night fall and they took control of the area around An Shang Gate again. However, our troops managed to hold strong with the height and protection of the walls. It is almost dawn now and the attacks are sparse.

I let out a sigh of relief after the last bit. “That is good to hear.”

I shift over to get a cup of tea. I turn back as I sip the tea and clash into his gaze which causes me to stop dead in my tracks.

His eyes have stopped on my neck, filled with astonishment. In this room with dim candlelights, all I can see is the astonishment.

Slowly, Heng Ziyu looks up to my face, the flinty spark in his eyes gone, leaving only hints of depression. I realise with a start—I let go of the collar of the robe earlier when I grabbed the tea cup. The wounds on my face and the marks around my neck must all lay exposed to him right now.

I start feeling self-conscious now. No matter how dark the hall is, there is no way he cannot see when he is this close to me. And a man his age would certainly know what kind of marks these are.

This feels as embarrassing as being caught cheating.

I lower my gaze only to feel more embarrassed. There was so little time I didn’t have enough time to even tie the belt. The wet bath robe inside is completely showing and stuck to my skin. The silk robe becomes wet easily and is almost see-through as it sticks to me.

My heart is pounding. I clutch the cup in my hand, not knowing where to put my eyes. His towering figure is like a wall, blocking me without moving at all.

I look down and notice that his arm has been roughly bandaged. I suppose he got hurt.

“You’re injured, Marshal?” I try to keep my voice flat but I find that my heart is beating even faster and my ears are ringing so loud that I don’t even know if he answered me or not.

Cold air hits my shoulders and I realise one side of the robe has slid off my shoulder.

Alarmed, I try to shrink back but I find that he is holding down my shoulder like a metal strap. In the moments of my bewilderment, he snatches the cup and throws it on the ground. The ugly shattering sound brings me back to present and I wrap the robe around me in a hurry. He regards me with a cold look as he snatches my wrist and touches my neck with the cold fingertips of his other hand.

“Could You tell me what this is?”

My stomach jumps nervously and I can’t form any words. He leans in close and raises his voice. Pulling his arm to the side, he tears down the other collar.

“You’re going to have to forgive me if You do not tell me!”

So embarrassed that I’m angry, I bark at him, “It’s none of your business!”

He stops and glares at me with eyes like a blade. I gasp and return the look. “Who are you to stick your nose into my business?”

He watches me steadily without further movement, his emotions indecipherable. No more words, no more movement, save for his slightly trembling hand that is holding my wrist.

I grit my teeth and fling his hand away, drawing back speedily. His fingertips scrape across my neck, making me shiver. His burning eyes linger on me, surprisingly appearing glum.

I don’t want to look at him anymore and I drag my robe back into place. “It will be dawn soon. If Marshal Heng wishes to speak about matters with me, I ask that You wait momentarily outside the hall.”

“Your Majesty,” he finally starts talking after a long silence. “You seemed to have been…since yesterday evening. Did You leave the palace?”

This stops my hands from tidying myself.

“Why must You be like this?” he asks quietly while holding eye contact.

The flames in his eyes start to flicker and just when it appears to almost burst out, he sweeps his arm out and whisks me into his embrace. He snatches my hand again and presses it to his chest. His freezing, metal armour makes me shiver.

The rusty smell of blood is so chilling but his tone of voice is so gentle I feel my heart clenching.

“Why must you… Don’t you trust me?”

I look at him dumbly. My mind is in a mess. I have no idea why he has said that all of a sudden.

The next thing I know, he tilts my face up and kisses me—breaching my lips with the cold of the night and a tinge of bloodshed.

Within the darkness in his eyes, flames seem to have been lit once again.

My senses come back to me and I shove him away, stepping back while catching my breath.

He looks confused while I point at the door, shaking and trembling, even my voice. “Out! Get out!”

Heng Ziyu keeps scrutinizing me and when he finally turns around, he leaves without looking back. As I watch him leave, I collapse on the ta with a tightly uncomfortable throat.

On the other hand, the sky outside the palace gradually starts to lighten. The morning rays seep in and drive away the darkness within.


ayszhang: Heng fans!!! Did any of you see that kiss coming? >u> hehehehe...
We're getting closer to the end!!! OAO *DUNDUNDUN*

On a side note, I would like to express my condolences for the brave souls who faced the atrocities committed by the Chinese Communist Party in 1989. Today marks the 26th anniversary of the Tiananmen Square Massacre when what was originally a peaceful protest, consisting mainly of university students, for human rights and against corruption turned into a violent clash after the government sent out over 300,000 soldiers to clear out the protest. Tanks and bombs were utilised in the process and hundreds, and some predict thousands, were killed. Afterwards, news of this incident was and is still completely covered up within Mainland China. The families of the deceased never received any sort of recognition or compensation. Now, before this gets too political, let me just say: May you all rest in peace. We are all praying for China to be liberalised as you once dreamt. 🙏

Chapter 36
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  1. More NSFW! *o*
    *starts chapter*

  2. That was a nice scene :3
    But also sad >.< Though, to be honest, Han Xin and Murong Yu's meeting turned out better than I expected... I was expecting something scary >.>
    I did not see that coming!! I DID NOT!
    So Heng Ziyu has made his move huh~
    Seriously, that was unexpected XD

  3. Yaaasssss ayszhang, Heng's fan is over here!!!!! Wuaaaahhh finally he made his move, but poor baby Heng, shoved by Xin like that >< But but Xin's response seems obvious hahaha can't wait for the next chapters.
    Murong and Xin scene just too.. ahh so heartwarming!!!
    Thank you for your translation as always. I love youuu <3

  4. I knew it when reading Ziyu wants to see HX and barged into palace. Of course he must know Xin is planning something while locking the palace. And could not restrain himself when saw those marks obviously from love making. Now Xin cannot play dumb like before since Ziyu made it clear with kiss.
    And I'm actually happy with meeting between MY and HX. It couldn't be better considering their positions.
    I want more😻please...

  5. XDDD yeah he finally made his move!!!

  6. Woot! A Heng fan <3

    You're welcome >_<

  7. 😏 Han Xin wearing wet clothes...hmmm. Im just impressed that Heng didn't have a nose bleed!

    Hehe ;)

  8. No no no!! If I wasn't at work sneakily reading this, that's what I would have shouted. Just when I was liking Heng a bit more he goes and acts like a jealous lover when he has no right to. I guess I'm just totally not a fan of Heng/Xin pairing. Listen Heng, Xin doesn't belong to you, he belongs to Murong! I wonder what his reaction would be if he ever found out who left all those hickies muahaha.

    Yay more Murong and Xin moments! I'm sure that devil Murong purposely marked up Xin just to make things difficult for him lol. How nice if they could just stay in their own little world forever...... But how can the people outside not hear them going at it through the flaps of some tent? When I was living in my crappy dorms I could even hear my neighbors sneeze through walls.

  9. awwwww Murong Yu got a booty the middle of the war......awesome

  10. Oh good question o.o

    Perhaps they dozed off or stood really faraway. Or maybe they just pretend like they heard nothing XDDDD

  11. Bahahahaha I like the way you put it. Booty call. Hmmm ;)

  12. I didn't think HZ acted like a jealous lover. If that was the case he would have reacted with anger, envy and indignation. Perhaps accusations. The chapter only speaks of his astonishment, hints of depression and feeling glum.

    HX had stated that the one he loved loathed him and that it was beyond repair. And HX was worn down from the war, sleeping badly, etc. Not really in the best state of mind and body to get all hot and bothered ;) So for all HZ knew, there was no one in HX's life and HZ was probably the closest to him (sharing secrets, supporting one another).

    HZ was caught entirely off guard when out of nowhere, HX was showing signs of being thoroughly, uh, ‘tasted’, and hiding it. Shock and surprise. Followed by feeling down and probably sad. For all HZ knows it was just a one off fling. So he perhaps felt disappointed that HX had not noticed or taken HZ’s desire serious enough to use him for this purpose ;). And he might have felt double so much disappointed that HX did it in secret and wanted to hide it. HZ apparently thought they had more trust between them by now.

    I guess it is like when you have a crush on someone. You hinted more than once you have the hots for them, got close to them and thought you had a good chance. Then one day, when you are concerned about what is going on, that person has already given themslves to someone and you have no clue why, how or who. That is HZ atm ^^

  13. Question: Were the ladies behind the veil and Liu An still present when HZ burst in and started partway undressing HX and getting some lip action? x)

    Maybe the author forgot to mention they left, or assumes that we would understand that they would withdraw when the emperor receives a (important) visitor?

  14. A really bittersweet reunion, parting in a bittersweet sorrow and a jealousy of a homecoming. The eerie calmness before the big storm.

    MY got the whole banquet and a cake to himself and not leaving even a tininess crumb for ZH to enjoy.

    Ah, ZH just give up on HX because he is 1/2 of a star-cross lovers in this relationship with no room not even a tininess crack for you to wedge in between them. Just stay like a good subject and a good companion for HX. At least, you get to stay near HX while MY get the heart but physically far from HX.

    Knew that MY wouldn't agree to the last item term of peace negotiation. After all, MY did push down HX and punished him when he opened his mouth and offered to marry a princess as term of his promise and goodwill.

    AZ, thanks for the continuation of smoldering hot smex chapter. It gave my perverted heart a little something to chew on before the sorrow and deviation.

  15. It is not like they can't hear. It is just that they are more afraid of hearing the words "off with their/his head" or "be silence for ever" (as in tongue get rip/cut out).

  16. Oh it's mentioned. "They put down the clothing and leave after performing the rituals" something like that ;)

  17. XDDDD things aren't looking good for Heng I suppose hahaha no room for Marshal Heng!

    You're welcome >_< the smut was so nice to translate hehehe and yeah ;) he'd only agree if he was marrying Rui's emperor!

  18. Heng probably thought he had Xin all to himself and he was the only one who understood him. He gets upset after seeing all the marks on Xin that indicates he's been with someone else. He then demanded an explanation, glared at Xin, grabbed him with trembling hands (anger?), and forcefully hugged and kissed him. Sounds like what a jealous boyfriend would do. I'm sure he's genuinely hurt/disappointed/shocked but if he wasn't at least a little jealous, he would have just quietly skulked away and wallow in self pity instead of having this huge reaction.

    And I'm sure this will only push Xin further away from him. Xin already feels like Heng is a creeper and this just makes it worst lol!!

  19. Haha true true. Feel bad for these "servants" always hanging between life and death with one wrong move in front of royalty.

  20. Okay I agree with some of your points @Marishi but you forgot one thing ;) he cant be a "jealous boyfriend" he's only a "jealous person" XDDD

  21. Hahaha XD ok that made me feel a little bad for Heng lol

  22. OH MY GOSH! I forgot it was even Thursday (that, and I slept in super late). This is unforgivable! 😣

    Poor Heng Ziyu...but then again, I was like "Damn sir, know your place", what with him barging in when Han Xin was taking a BATH and asking such personal questions. He never really made his feelings clear with Han Xin (at least, that's how I saw it), so I'm like "What gives you the right to interrogate Han Xin? If anything, you're just his friend". There were SO many times where he could've made a move, back before Murong Yu showed up again. See Heng Ziyu?! Your self restraint was not admirable! You lost your chance! You just made it hella awkward....for everyone 😂

    I feel like going about his usual day will be so weird for Han Xin. Like, "What are all those bruises from, Your Highness?"

    "Oh, definitely not from having sex with the enemy, psssshh." <.<

    What is Han Xin going to do about all those bite marks and bruises? Makeup? 😆

    I was glad to see Murong Yu and Han Xin actually talk a bit after sexy time. That was something I was frustrated with in the last chapter, haha. Murong Yu kept hugging him, trying to stop him from leaving the tent....awwwww 😖

    Thank you!!! <333


  23. See? That happens when I only wear a monocle and not glasses to read a chapter ;)

  24. Ah true, HZ is rather pushy. Everyone who is leering at HX treats him rough, so I guess I have become desensitized by it x) HZ and MY are equal offenders in that.

    I am in the HZ camp, but I never trusted him. But this chapter made me sympathize with him more, because he was sad, acting all sensitive, hurt (poor
    guy was probably really concerned something bad had happened in the palace xD) and got turned down on top of that. But everyone knew from the start that he had no chance.

    I wouldn’t be surprised if in the next chapters he becomes vengeful or something (yeah, I
    still don’t trust him). Maybe ask the people who went with HX what happened and they may say Xiao’s name, he might draw the wrong conclusions, etc.

    And is it just me, or have the votes for HZ in the poll slightly dropped since MY showed up (to provide the audience with smut)? ;)

  25. Bahahaha XDD def not the enemy!!!

    I know >_< so sweet. Bittersweet more like it. 😥

    You're welcome~~~

  26. HZ never stood a chance; even before MY showed up, HX was at times careful around him. He noted a couple of times that they did not have the appropriate emperor-subject relationship.

    I am surprised that HZ actually seems to have feelings for him; I thought it was just lust and perhaps some twisted desire to conquer the emperor in some way, seen HZ seems to want the throne, but can’t be the emperor.

    I think HZ’s infraction is relatively mediocre, compared to MY basically threatening to rip HX clothes, pushing him to do it with him and letting him leave obviously marked, worn out and in pain. Especially the visible marks could be damaging for HX if someone would put two and two together.

    Who wouldn’t lose respect and loyalty to an emperor if he seemed to have been enjoying himself or selling his body to the enemy? And then chill and relax in the luxury of the palace while others have died and fought for survival?

  27. *speechless*

    i agree with everything you said, escpecially the last one, i've said it my own comment, he doesn't confess his feeling but rather shows them in action, how in the world would some one as clueless as Han Xin know? We all know he's too thick headed, just remember how much Murong Yu had to do and in the and Han Xin leaves him, and then realized how much he loves him.. Han Xin youi're just tooo slow *suddenly gets hit by a shoe, no 2 shoes.. 3 .. 4 ...*
    "what in the world is happening?"
    Han Xin Apears, his face flushed red from anger:"clueless, thinkheaded, and slow huh?"
    breaking news:

    a nii_san was found dead under a huge amount of shoes, and the culprit is unknown, and is out freely killing people with shoes.. 'the shoes man' , and the reason why he killed nii_san with a shoe is never to be known !!

    okay i'll finish, han xin isn't slow only, he's now in the hardest moments of his intire life, his lover is an enemy, he was forced to be an empreor, and he killed many people, poor Han Xin, i just hope all his misery ends soon...

    anyway, i was just going to say.. very smart, keep it up *thumbs up* ^^

  28. i bet that's why he didn't look back when he was going out, he was having a hard time restraing that blood from falling, until he finally had a tastle, and took a good last look then went to have a nice private time in his room.. uhem uhem..
    *suddenly falls dead*

    what happened?
    only god knows what caused nii_san's death!

  29. heng fan, hiiiiiii, nice to meet youuu, where have youbeen hiding from me allthis time??
    you know double H scene reallyfelt as though Han was cheating on Heng XDDDD and Xin even admitted it himself...

    here have a heart because you love Heng <3

  30. i won the first place, back to me golden medal, don't worry*patts head* i bet you'll beatme next time.. :p

    YAaaaaaaayy, more expressing live scenes, oh how much i wish next chaptr would another NSFX chapter ^-^

  31. Murong yu why dont you just kidnap him ....and keep him forever LOL 😈

  32. I felt the same way about Heng! How dare he act so bold especially since Xin is the emperor. I've been saying all along how I felt Heng never showed Xin any respect as a ruler.

    Xin can be a fashionista and wear a decorative neck scarf to hide his love bites hahaha.

  33. Ah, come on HX, just let ZH get a tininess nibble and to have him groveling more and going crazy for it and keep dangling that piece of eyes candy attach with a string and stick in front of his eyes to lead him however which direction you wanted him to go.

    MY leaving his stamp and mark of ownership on HX for everyone to see (got my acknowledge approval on that).

    I wonder why MY didn't leave some marks on and around certain area on HX's body (if you get my meaning).

  34. Totally agree with u.

    HZ is still prob unclear on his own feelings. I mean most people assume they are straight until proven otherwise right?

    And yeah, when you put it like that, Murong is pretty inconsiderate (or u can see it as arrogant and self-centered), not thinking about the consequences for Han Xin if anyone found out and used it against Han Xin. (Maybe he just wants that to happen! >_<)

  35. Nii_san, where were you? I miss you. Hope you are not peeved at me because I keep picking on you. You know that I only pick on you because I luv you.

    Are you still hiding in your secret closet to write these comments?

  36. I'm usually very open to love triangle type scenarios and I usually end up sympathizing with the second guy but for some reason I don't care much for Heng. The first reason may be like what you mentioned. You can't really tell his true intentions. I think he half cares about Xin and half cares about advancing his own power/status. And the second reason (which is a major reason why I personally don't ship Heng/Xin) is that Xin just plain doesn't have any interest in even acknowledging Heng as a potential love partner and there isn't any mutual chemistry between them. It's mostly Heng acting all inappropriate and Xin trying to evade his creepiness and lustful stares. I don't even think Xin feels bad for turning him down LOL!! Instead it seems he's really pissed that Heng actually made a move on him.

  37. I was thinking in a line of ZH's suspicion of HX of sneaking off to a brothel to be taking care of his pent up unreleased excessive precious liquid with a woman without the consequence persecution (as in a child).

  38. Thank you for your wishes <3


    D: I don't want it to end eitherrrr. Lol *cough*thelastchapterisnttheactualending*cough*

    I definitely teared up when I translated this chapter :( That line about the sun rising... 😩 wahhh

    But like someone said, Murong wont give his goal up for Han Xin... :( grrrr

  39. ;) but perhaps extra 3 will change people's minds?

  40. OMG, a scarf! XD That would be interesting. What season is it right now in the story? I forget....but if it's hot out, wearing a scarf would be even more hilarious


  41. Yeah, HZ is part perv; he invades HX privacy now and then and crosses the line when it comes to treating the emperor with respect and as, well, an emperor (though you could make a case for that it is good that he does not put HX on a high pedestal and treats him more like a person). He is sort of threatening, which is very uncomfortable.

    I consider MY to be a similar inappropriate perv; he has been touching HX in his sleep when they had nothing going on between them. And when HX resists, glares and swears at him he overrules and restrains HX. He basically has his way, forcing HX in submission. Only after he seems to be getting somewhere with HX or hurts him (it is really already to late when you hurt someone..) does he become more attentive and gentle.

    HZ seems a little less of a perv than MY, who pounced and followed through when HX was to weak to resist. HZ has not done that so far; only a kiss, but he retreated when told off. MY never listens to HZ when he resist or says 'no'. So in a weird way, HZ seems to be more of a gentleman (for now).

  42. When 17 hours have passed, is it too late to perform CPR? ....Yes? Oh..*sad face*

  43. I fear that HX won't get the happy ending he hopes for. I would be pretty miserable when I am alone, not well understood, worn down, can't sleep, desperately holding down a city with crumbling defenses (it feels like HX would've might have been better off retreating instead of holding the city); poisoned water, the bad shape of the gates and walls, going through a war of attrition (the slinking number of soldiers), fighting the person I love and having to deal with a general I can’t quite trust.

    Kind of a tiger at the front gate, a wolf at the back situation. I'd be terribly stressed and miserable =/

  44. ohhh my god, i always love your coughs, their the best XD

  45. @sorns why are you so awesome? XDDD I'm loving every one of your comments

  46. ohh yeaaaaaaaa, kidnapping him would be the besssst ><

  47. oh, that closet? I have gone out of it long ago, chack my super late comments, i think my comment for chapter 33..
    you'll see the xiao in a different form XDD

    ohhh, come onn, why would i hate, i think i love o be picked on by you XDD soo keep that up

  48. I'm not saying Murong isn't just as pushy and pervy with Xin, but the difference is how Xin really feels/reacts and the chemistry. It's Murong's personality to be aggressive just like how it's Xin's personality to be difficult. In the beginning Xin resisted Murong but somewhere along the way, he subconsciously accepted him and they connected. Even though Xin hates that Murong is such a perv, but since it's Murong he'll give into him. He curses up a storm every time they're intimate, but he feels the desire just as much as Murong does. Would tsundere be an appropriate description? Lol.

    With Heng, Xin feels no romantic connection at all. And it's probably because he already gave himself to Murong. So any type of flirtation is truly seen as a burden and is definitely unwanted. If he had met Heng first, maybe things might have been different. But I think probably not because Xin is the type that needs someone to corner him and forcefully pry open his tightly closed heart and I don't think Heng has the ability to do that.

    So therefore in my eyes (and probably in Xin's eyes as well): Murong = loveable creep and Heng = creepy creep. XD

  49. Yeah and make him as prisoner in his bed chamber for the rest of his life!!!!!

  50. And here I thought I was the most perverted. You guys are too, or maybe my pervertedness got channeled to you guys (birds of the feathers flock together). While at it, MY should just take away all HX's clothes and leave him in his birthday suite in the luxury bedchamber prison.

  51. You have a good point with that HZ is more forceful in getting to know HX. Or at least in a different and less ‘comfortable’ kind of way than MY. MY asks and when he gets no answer he just seemed to pout a bit and leaves it at that. HZ seems to be more emotional (compared to other characters, he shows quite a lot of different emotions, while not always acting on them) and poking in his approach. Perhaps not always consciously (the stares), but people would probably still feel more at ease with MY.

    I don’t think HZ ever had a chance though. Even without MY. I think HX was mostly or completely into girls before MY came around. And I don’t think he would warm up to HZ; from the start their relationship (interaction, status, mutual trust) was off.

  52. Leaving from Dr.murong's embrace seems so hard to do... I wouldnt be able to if not for a guilty conscience. 😨😖

  53. XD I don't think there were scarves in Ancient China. At least not to my knowledge

    And it's winter in the story! Around January I believe

  54. Yeah! That may totally be what he's thinking. For all we know, Heng still thinks Han Xin likes a woman! A fierce, fiesty woman who likes to get (really) physical with her lover

  55. Liu An might have been present? But as a personal servant he must know when to turn a blind eye (and a deaf ear, I guess?) to the emperor's private matters ;)

    Plus, no one is supposed to look directly at the emperor without permission so all servants keep their eyes downwards before the emperor especially when spoken to.

  56. 😔 You're absolutely right. Imagining him standing there with his arms still open from the hug, looking at you with an affectionate gaze... (T ^ T)

  57. No need for CPR. Maybe her heart stop momentarily. In that case, just revive her by giving her heart the defibrillator & hook her up to medical equipments to keep her alive. But then again, we don't have money to keep her in the hospital with around the clock care. Oh hell, lets just bury her. Don't worry, we will find her a nice place to bury her in with a nice tombstone that read "Here lie a girl/woman who nosebleed non-stop and who heart gave out from the overly active pumping from reading all the smex. May she R.I.P."

  58. why all the trouble? just get Han Xin to touch, only ne touch with his little finger, and she'll come back to life again, she'll even look more alive than she ever was! <.< well, that's work with me, but i die all the time so Han Xin won't give me a look T^T

    Ohh yeah , remembered a sentence i read once.. notice me senpai..

    nii_san looks at Han Xin: "Notice me senpai.. notice me your majesty.. umm, notice me Han Xin-sama.. ummmmm.. I'm out of sentences, Help >< "

    Han Xin furrows his perfect brows:" hmm, did i hear something?” *looks around* : “nope, i must be imagening things, i’m not sleeping well after all!”, he walks away as he says that…

    nii_san looks at his back slowly going further and further..





    ༼ ༎ຶ ෴ ༎ຶ༽

    I was ignored *sob sob sob*

    Oh yea, your last sentence, no comment !

    Never let some one named eye44can1 plan your funeral !!!


  59. Heng finally makes his move! Lol! Right now i feel like I'm favoring Heng more than Murong but than again i haven't seen the bad side of Heng quiet. Murong, i already know is a jerk/hottie! ;)

    Well, i can't tell who i really like more until the end that's why i haven't voted yet.😝

    If i do happen to like Heng more by the end of the story i would really want to read a separate story about him and the person he will end up with. His very own love story! That would be great!

    Anyone willing to do a fanfiction on Heng?😄 would appreciate it very much!

    ....Well that is if Heng doesn't get kill in this story. :(

  60. DAT FACE AGAIN! XDDD *dies of laughter*
    omg no. I take that back. I don't want @eye44can1 to arrange my funeral for me =A=

  61. =3= let's wait until extra 3 before writing any fan fics on Heng~~~
    RIP indeed .___.

  62. What are you talking about my little friend? HX can't revive anybody. He, himself, just got revived by MY.

    You, my friend on the other hand, died too many times that I lost count. Ah hell, I might as well bury you myself just to get us out of our misery. Don't worry. I'll even put a nice tombstone on your mount of dirt with inscription "Here lie nii_san who died too many times & over estimated HX's power of revival; therefore, she died & got buried by eye44can1. Oh well, may she R.I.P". Showing *ambivalent face* with *crocodile tears* for nii_san.

  63. Ah ~ don't worry AZ, I wouldn't bury you. I'll revive & keep you alive no matter what.

    I'll even keep you in a nice room (all nice & tightly locked up with no way to escape) with a nice laptop/computer for you to translate all the smex novels for all of us bananas here to enjoy with the exception of nii_san & Adriane who died & got buried by me.

    All the live bananas here, who are in favor of this plan, rise their hands & shout "Aye!"

    And, no, no , no, I'm not evil. In fact, I'm very lovable. See, I even kept you alive. Aren't I great? *smirking* & *snickering* behind the locked door.

  64. *gasp* *stares at @eye44can1 with horror* D:
    I underestimated your wickedness QAQ

  65. Ah ~ What wickedness? I don't see any wickedness. I just told you that I'm very lovable. I think you got me confuse with DE. You have been reading too much of nii_san's comments that you got the confusion. See, it is a good thing that I'm keeping you in nice tightly locked room so that you wouldn't go dizzy with reading all nii_san's comments and get more confuse.

  66. *slowly backs away*
    Someone help! QAQ

  67. I don't think anyone would help. I think practically all the bananas here would agree with my plan. Well, maybe with the exception of nii_san but she died & got buried by me. But, if someone else help, it is too late for I have already flushed the key to the locked room down the toilet. So sorry, AZ. You have go along with this plan.

  68. Hmmmmmmmmmm.....ok but you're really making me curious about extra 3 😕

  69. OMG!! SO MUCH FUN!! i think Heng's kiss is a tad delayed. he should have done it a long time ago! Now it can't compare with Murong's sexiness.

    thank you again! wonderful chappie!

  70. XD Heng just holds back too much!!!
    You're welcome :)

  71. Suddenly eye44can1 get kicked!!!!

    Muahahahha, nii_san came back.. no wait, nii_san the zombie !!!
    eye44can1 looks at nii_san in horror: "i'm dead!!"
    nii_san with a smile on her face: "yes you are !!!!!!"
    and then she jumps on her and eats her alive !!!!!!!!
    "hmmm, not bad, guess a pervert's meat is atually delicious, i shoulc've left some for later"
    nii_san walks to where ayszhang was locked, breacks the door with her new power!
    ayszhang immediatly jumps and hugs nii_san:"thank you for savng me from that devil *sob sob sob* i'll translate all stories only for youuuu"
    a tear falls down nii_san's cheek:"i'm in heaven" !!
    *pats her belly* :"thats what you get for killing a nii_san"

  72. Hey, I didn't kill you. You kill yourself & died. I just buried you out of my own good heart. You, a zombie, I'll just light a fire & set you ablaze. And, I don't think the other bananas would let you break down the door if you can but then again, your in ablaze & too busy trying to put out the fire off you.

  73. Oh, I don't know. In my opinion, I think that most likely ZH is not aggressive enough in his pursuit of HX because he is afraid of losing even the tininess standing ground & to be close to HX because HX doesn't have any emotion connection with him & keep him at arm length. He can see it just by every little tiny actions that HX displayed in front of him. The only thing, that got him staying close to HX, is the war. HX & he have only 1 thing in common is the goal of not letting Rui fall. And, HX only confine in him is war strategy. He is felling very constraint with his emotions that why if HX shows a little displeasure, he is afraid of losing HX altogether that why he back off right away. He is very pitiful in my opinion. In this relationship, he is a day late & a dollar short.

    While, MY is very aggressively & relentlessly pursuit HX because he have nothing to fear & loose. At the end, he broke down all HX emotional barrier defenses. It took him awhile but he got HX. He even got HX tell him about the deepest, darkest fear that HX has. He has more in common & a lot more going for him with HX than ZH (while ZH doesn't even get HX to confine in him anything personal). Remember, MY didn't have to let HX go but did. While letting HX go, he probably thinking "I'll just let the pigeon fly & soon or later it will come flying back to me." (very smart cookie). In this relationship, he is the early bird that got the worm.

    HX, being HX, once he stands/believe or involve in something, he will stay firmly put & no matter how much pushing & pulling he get, he will not budge.

    At the end of the day, in HX & ZH's relationship, they each goes to their own perspective beds to sleep. And, in HX & MY's relationship, they both fall in the same bed doing other things beside sleeping.

  74. Noo way, you killed me by burying me, you know very well that i always come back to life, good heart you say, huh?

    We all know how much of a devil you are..

    oh yea, why in the world are you calling them bananas?

    How could you set me on fire when i already ate you?? either way, i bet those bananas would run away once they see me, after all their leader, eye44can1, has been eaten :p

    And what's better than a zombie on fire, it's easier to make a barbecue with those bananas, hopefully they are as delicious as a certain someone >:D

  75. this is awesome chapter Heng got to kissed him:-) thanks you so much for translate it so beautifully love you

  76. I am loving the idea of having Xin as MY's bride as part of the third condition:) Oh, wait. I have already seen this plot in another bl novel, damn. So lets just twist it a little to the doggy and owner plot. Xin gets overthrown and MY pops up with a collar to "rescue" his bride. But by now Xin has already developed stockholm syndrome won't run away anymore... hehehe Ziyu~~~~ my darling, you are quite welcomed here with me after you get a heartbreak. I will give you lots of love and a happy ending fanfic if you wish. Teasing slowpokes brings out the fangirl in me. *grins*

  77. I calls all of us here bananas because as you know bananas grow in a bunch together, and we, as a collective in a bunch, have same interest of liking to read BL.

  78. ohhh... *nii_san looks at herself for a second*
    And i thought you were a pervert...
    guess i'm more perverted than you !!!
    Ask me why..
    eye44can1: "why?"
    You know, when i was a younger, me and a bunch of idiotic friends would joke around, we (not only me and my friends, every child knows this !!!!) use banana to refer to a man's .. thing...
    While, we use an apple to refer to a woman's...
    we also use a bread to refer to the man's, and cheese to refer to a women's.. and i think there are several other... these dirty stuff are always being used in school, so we had to be careful of what we're saying, or else it'll be stuck with us for the rest of our lives..
    Did you get it??
    I thought you used bananas because we are reading BL.. guess i was wrong ?!!

  79. OMG! LOL! No, I get what you mean. But to me in my think if it is 1 banana with skin on, then yes, it either stands as an uncircumcised man or a virgin, but if it with the skin off, then, it is as a circumcised man or very sexual active man.

    But an apple to refer to a woman's thing, then, my thinking is different from yours. A cherry would be more of my thinking of woman's bottom thing, and apples or melons or even watermelons would represent the woman's chest.

    In the line of bread & cheese, I don't get it. But, if I was to take a guess of what you mean, then I think for me would be cream, milk & vanilla pudding.

    Remembered, I started to read very smutty materials back when I was just 14. So, my mind is way too deep in the muddy.

  80. hmm, i take that back, you are indeed more a pervert than me!!!!

    ohh, about the bread and cheese thing, the bread is tall, i don't know how to describe it for you, like the ones you put hotdogs in it, as for the cheese it hasa triangle shape soo.. you get me right, i never really been into these things, they always bother me with it soo i kinds picked some pervertness from them (i was 100% innocent and puuure :p) but that was just in middle school we no longer talk about that anymore.. luckily..

    But, who cares two bananas are better than a banana and an apple, or an apple with an apple if you understand what i mean <.<

    Reminds me, i have this friend who just loooooves eating bananas, and when they serve us bananas in the canteen, she keeps looking for extras and extras and exrtaaaaaaas !!!
    And i, as a secret pervert, would look at her eating them so eagely and think some thing soo out of the line, just too dirty, just too eye44can1 !! (did you get what i'm hinting at?)
    mann, if she knows what i'm thinking XDD nii_san will die and never come back to life !!

  81. OMG! LOL! No words to describe my mental stage right now. And, hey, I like to eat bananas too. I have 1 everyday in the morning along with a cup of coffee for my breakfast. I would slowly peeled off the skin, then, slowly licked around top for a little while, and then finally, took a big chomp out of it.

  82. no comment XDD
    you're killing me !!

  83. this is amazing omg when are you going to post the next chapter? can't wait !

  84. *jumps in celebration* he finally kissed him!!!
    You're very welcome :)

  85. XD Well, beauty is in the eye of the beholder hehe

  86. <u< *snickers*
    I wish Han Xin would develop Stockholm!!!
    And will you really write a fanfic *o*

  87. <3 Thank you for the love. You can check out the update schedule on the top of the sidebar on desktop or the top of the page on mobile ;)

  88. Who is this certain someone? *o*

  89. I will never look at hotdog buns in the same way ever again *_* #scarredforlife

  90. So sorry made you scare of hotdog buns for life. Just put it out of my comment & the image of hotdog buns out of your mind. It is like "out sight, out of mind", & replace with the image of how a banana been eaten instead.

  91. I'm a little confuse here. I thought HX has already developed the syndrome and that he just like to be free. Didn't he developed the feeling for his captor already?

  92. Well, if you wanna get technical, Han Xin actually requested to leave. If he had Stockholm, he should have wanted to stay.
    Also, this psychological condition is something that eventually "wears off," so to speak, after the captive is free from the captor's influence, but in the story it's obvious his feelings for Murong Yu continues to be strong even long after his release.
    But perhaps I'm being too technical ('cause of my If you really think about it, Murong stopped abusing him fairly soon after the whipping in the very beginning. He mentioned once after saving Han Xin (after Han Xin got stabbed in prison by Xie) that he had researched torture methods...but when did we see him torture Han Xin again??? XD Or perhaps he really meant "courting methods"??? XDD cuz after that he basically did nothing but "harrass" Han Xin into more skinship and opening up to him emotionally. If you see that as traumatic...I guess you can call it Stockholm? XDDD

  93. I honestly thought that he might actually do that. I thought he took note of that whenever
    he lets HX go off on himself, he becomes wounded or does not return. So I figured there was 50% chance he would just keep HX as his smexy pow and take over Rui.

    Then again, maybe that train of thought says more about me then MY >;)

  94. It is the top hat. It is all because of the top hat. It makes me feel mighty and inspired. Like a Avenger ;)

  95. Eh ~ And, here I thought as an Aristocat (Disney animation movie), you would feel almighty like an aristocrat (a gentry) but not like an Avenger (super power).

  96. Oh yes, I am most definitely a gentlecat (I am not exactly a gentle*man* after all), but I aspire to be more. Maybe have the face of HZ on my top hat as an emblem and use it as a throwing weapon, like Captain America :D

  97. LOL! After reading this comment, you just make my morning. You can glaze in daze at HZ (or do you meant to say HX?) all you want but I goes for MY. He more of my type of guys, & I think he more of powerful in form of strength than HZ, & I would use him as a weapon instead. HX is too much of feminine for me, and if he was to standing next to us girls, other guys would maybe drooling & go for him instead of us.

  98. He should leave him in nothing so they don't have to bother with stripping

  99. :O Question. Who do you think would win in a close-quarter combat? I'm curious too but too bad the story doesn't go into the martial ability of Murong and Heng Ziyu😟 but then again, Murong just has to touch Han Xin in certain spots for him to overpower him 😏

  100. XD Honestly, if Murong hadn't pushed Han Xin to face his feelings, they wouldn't have gotten together! And now that there's someone in Han Xin's heart already it's extra hard for Heng

  101. See, you just answer it. HX just have to bark at ZH, and ZH afraid of losing his standing with HX & don't want to offense HX that why he back off right away (to me that is pitiful) while MY already has HX's love in the bag that why he is not afraid since he have nothing to lose (yes, he love HX but really how strong is his love for HX) but if lose HX's love, I think he probably sad for a while but then would shrug it off as if nothing (he is not going to cry over some little spilled milk) because after all he did let HX leaved his side & that to me make him emotionally stronger than ZH (maybe I'm being too critical, you think?).

    As for martial ability, I think they are about the same & evenly match because HX was just a little tad below MY's & ZH's level when he sparred with them.

  102. That why I said in his birthday suit (it means that the day he came into the world, he has nothing on).

  103. *gasps* An American saying that I've never heard of >o< Wow. You learn something new everyday huh!

  104. I also learned a lots of things from you too.

  105. Han Xin never sparred with Murong or Heng in this story ToT we've never even seen the two fight!
    But yeah, I think you're right. Heng wouldn't risk hurting ('cause he adores his emperor ;D) Han Xin and Murong wouldn't even need to fight ;DDDD
    But I have a feeling that Murong is a more fearsome enemy than Heng or Han Xin because he's just so cold-blooded (he's only not when he's with Han Xin...)

  106. Oh, my bad. I thought that he did. Or, did he just sparred with YY only?

  107. See, you refreshed my mind.

  108. Ahahaha, Congrats~ Yes, i'll try, i'll try XD

    I know right! But... i'm unsure about that :P Anyways, we'll find out tomorrow ;)

  109. IKR!! x)
    They seduced Xin in different ways and I didn't expect that Xin would fall for Murong 'rough' style hahahah.. But but if Heng more patient and more gentle there will be a chance to win Xin's heart, perhaps? hahahah.
    I mean, if Xin wants to make it more simple, he just need to fly to Heng's arms and he will give Xin all his live (even I still don't know Heng's true intentions, but I still believe he is not a bad person for Xin)

  110. Staph tempting me (or Han Xinin that case ehheheheheheheheh) TT.TT