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Then they began to climb and they were going to the East it seemed, and then it darkened and they were in a storm, the rain so thick it seemed like flying through a waterfall, and then they were out and Compie turned his head and grinned and pointed and there, ahead, all he could see, as wide as all the world, great, high, and unbelievably white in the sun, was the square top of Kilimanjaro. And then he knew that there was where he was going.
–Ernest Hemingway, The Snows of Kilimanjaro
“Please come again soon!”
The glass door closed behind them. With his stomach full
of hot food, Xu Ping felt warm and lazy as though he were in a steamy sauna.
“Let’s go home.” Xu Ping turned around to tell his
brother.
“Okay.”
The moon was especially bright tonight, and with the fragrance
of jasmines hovering in the evening air, the ground seemed to be covered with a
thin layer of snow. Although the past week had been tough and the following
week was not going to be any easier, Xu Ping felt content for the brief period
of rest.
As he unlocked the bicycle lock, he asked, “Do you
want to ride the bicycle home or walk home?”
Xu Zheng kept his head low in contemplation.
Xu Ping looked up at the moon and said, “We haven’t
taken walks in the evening for a long time. Let’s take a walk and digest some
of this food.”
Without a peep, Xu Zheng reached forward to grab his
brother’s hand.
The younger boy’s hand was different from Xu Ping’s in
that it was constantly warm. Once upon a time, Xu Ping could easily wrap the
boy’s fist in one hand, but now he had the impression that he wouldn’t be able
to break free from the hand around his fingers.
When did his baby brother get this big?
“We haven’t measured your height and weight in a long
time. Remember to drop by the health clinic next time we pass it.”
“Okay.”
He had taken his brother around on the back of the
bicycle ever since he could remember, but recently he was beginning to find it
taxing. He could no longer go over a hill by stepping harder on the pedal but
instead had to let Xu Zheng off and walk the hill together.
Xu Ping put a palm flat on Xu Zheng’s shoulder and
eyeballed his height. “I think you grew again this month. My head reached your
eyes before, but now it’s only at your nose. If this goes on, you’ll hit six
feet before the end of summer.”
Xu Zheng took his brother’s hand from his head and
placed in against his own chest.
After a moment of faltering, a bashful Xu Ping gently
pulled his hand back.
“Okay, it’s getting late now. We have to go home. Come
on now.”
He hurriedly pushed the bicycle along, but after a few
steps he realized his brother wasn’t following him. He looked back with the
same haste.
Xu Zheng was standing in the same spot staring at his
brother with a gaze so intent and still that Xu Ping felt his heart skip a
beat.
“What’s wrong, Xiao-Zheng?”
Xu Zheng stepped towards his brother and hugged the
older boy before beginning to rub his head on his brother’s shoulder like a dog
trying to get its owner’s attention.
Both a little annoyed and entertained, Xu Ping lifted
his brother’s face up. “What’s wrong?”
Instead of answering, Xu Zheng took a few sniffs of
his brother’s shoulder and neck like a hound before burying his face again.
Xu Ping gave a few pushes, but the other boy would not
budge.
“What is it? Something you want me to buy for you?”
Xu Zheng shook his head.
Xu Ping let the bicycle lean against him while he
wrapped his arm around his brother.
“You know, Xiao-Zheng,
you can tell me if you have any troubles.” He rubbed his brother’s back
lovingly. “There’s a lot I can’t do, but if it’s something I can do, I will
make your wishes come true.”
Xu Zheng muttered a quiet “okay.”
“Did you get bullied at school?”
Xu Zheng shook his head.
“Did the teacher scold you?”
Xu Zheng shook his head again.
“Don’t like him.”
“Huh?” Xu Ping was confused. “Who?”
“He kept touching your shoulder! I don’t like him! Don’t
like him!” As Xu Zheng said this, he kept nuzzling his brother’s shoulder as if
he were trying to cover the scent of another dog who had invaded his territory.
It took Xu Ping a while before he recognized the
situation. He pulled Xu Zheng up by the collar and chided, “You’re acting up
‘cause of that? You had me worried!”
He explained while pinching his brother’s cheeks,
“That guy is my friend, and your brother isn’t a piece of antique art that
can’t be touched.”
Xu Zheng continued his strong hug of his brother. He
did not understand this bitter discontent inside him, and while Xu Ping did
understand, the older boy could not say a thing.
Feeling a bit of bitterness but also sweetness, he
patted his brother’s back lightly as he comforted, “All right now. You’re not a
doggy, are you? Well, even if you are, I’m not your play bone.”
As expected, Xu Zheng could not grasp the metaphor.
The boy only looked up briefly before embracing his brother tightly again.
He breathed in the fresh scent from his brother again
and again, never tiring of it. The hand brushing along his spine brought this
tingly feeling that slowly heated his body. Something vaguely familiar seemed
to be racing and crashing around in his veins as though his flesh and bones
themselves were declaring their desire for the person in his arms.
The bicycle toppled to the ground with a bang.
After a moment of silence, Xu Ping pushed Xu Zheng.
“Let go.”
Xu Zheng only tightened his arms.
“Are you disobeying me? I’m going to count to three. You’d
better have let go before I do. One…two…”
Xu Zheng let go obediently and hung his head low like
a child who had misbehaved.
Eyeing the tent in his brother’s pants, Xu Ping heaved
a long, silent sigh.
He took off his own jacket and tied it around his
brother’s waist.
“Don’t get horny in public,” he reprimanded as he
straightened the bicycle.
Xu Zheng was still standing dumbly in the same spot.
Xu Ping reached for his brother’s hand but almost
tripped and fell on his face.
“Gege, I
feel bad.”
Sighing, Xu Ping ruffled the younger boy’s hair.
“You’ve really grown up, all right.”
His dad had bought the Phoenix bicycle that Xu Ping used from a second-hand dealer. The black paint had mostly fallen off after all these years, the artificial leather on the saddle was so smooth from wear that it shone, and the bell on the handlebars had been replaced three times. Even the gold and red Phoenix logo had rusted and was not discernible under a coat of maroon grime.
He pushed the vehicle along the dimly lit road. Every
few steps or so, the back wheel would make a kuh-lunk sound.
The chain seemed to have been knocked off, Xu Ping
thought. It was too dark to examine closely.
What was supposed to be a walk had become an army
march. When they passed by the Central Park, Xu Ping suggested to take a short
break there.
The so-called Central Park was nothing more than a
larger band of greenery and some trees and flowers sandwiched between two
roads. A statue of a mother and son stood in the middle. Beside it was a set of
children’s slide, seesaw and swing. The park was not far from Xu Ping’s house.
Many parents took their children here in the summer evenings to stay cool, but
now the moon had climbed quite high in the sky. Most people had long gone home.
The dazzling nightlife in the following decades represented decadence and
corruption in these years. The old ways of thinking – the pure, the
conservative, the insane, the radical, the good and the bad – were still
deeply-rooted and refusing to leave anytime soon, preparing for a final battle
with the new wave.
Xu Ping parked the bicycle, sat down on one end of the
seesaw and beckoned to his brother, asking him to play with him.
His brother weighed quite a bit more than him and had
to sit closer to the centre to reach balance. Although he was long past the age
to play on the seesaw, he still felt an indescribable joy when he was catapulted
into the air. Xu Ping burst out in laughter.
The brothers continued fooling around in the park. Xu
Ping was thoroughly entertained by the sight of his brother working the seesaw
earnestly. From his end of the seesaw, the action of kicking off with two legs
looked a lot like a leaping frog, albeit an extremely handsome frog. But Xu
Ping decided to keep that thought to himself.
He hopped off the seesaw and found that the slide was
too narrow for him. Thankfully, the seats of the swing were wide enough. There
were four lined up in a row, so he pulled Xu Zheng over.
Holding onto the rope with both hands, he lightly
pushed off on his toes to start swinging. He looked up at the tiny dots in the
sky and thought of the summer nights when the family gathered together in the
courtyard. He would lie hand in hand with his brother tracing the Milky Way
across the navy blue sky. He was silent, in awe at the brilliant beauty of the
universe.
He turned to Xu Zheng who was only sitting on the
swing, not swinging.
He slowed his own swing.
There were no more automobiles on the roads now, only
the occasional bicycle rolling past under the streetlight making the shadows
sway apart before coming together again. The fence along the sidewalk was
crawling with ivy, and various spots of light were coming from the old
residential building beyond it.
“Xiao-Zheng.”
“Mhm?”
“I’m going to university.”
Xu Zheng replied with a quiet hum, not having
understood the meaning behind this.
“It’s not right away, but if everything goes well,
I’ll leave home this September and move to the dorm at school.”
Xu Zheng’s head snapped to attention, and his eyes
locked onto his brother.
“It will take four years. I might decide to further my
studies after graduation. Master’s, doctor’s, it’ll take another six or seven
years. I think I’m a book-person, so my future career will probably be in this
field.”
Holding the ropes, Xu Zheng stayed quiet.
“I haven’t discussed this with Dad yet, but I think he
will support me, because everybody thinks going to school, being an academic is
a noble thing.”
Xu Zheng contemplated for a moment with his head down
and replied, “Then I’ll go with you, Gege.”
After a long silence, Xu Ping began to explain, “You
might not understand, Xiao-Zheng, but
this world has its own rules. Some things everybody can do, some things nobody
can do, and some things only some people can do. Going to university is one of
those things.”
Xu Zheng thought about it for a long time but in the
end shook his head. “I don’t get it.”
Xu Ping chuckled. “It’s fine if you don’t. This
world’s a strange place, after all. There’s a set of invisible rules fixed
around every person. You can’t see these rules, but they are very powerful. If
they are broken, other people will start attacking you. Sometimes I don’t get
it either.”
Xu Zheng
lowered his head and started stabbing the sand with the toe of his shoe.
“Is there something you’d like to do? Painting? Or
singing? Anything?”
Xu Zheng picked at the ropes. “I want to be with you, Gege.”
Feeling heavy-hearted, Xu Ping did not know how to
answer. He asked after long minutes, “What would you want to do if you were by
yourself?”
After some deep thought, Xu Zheng replied weakly, “I
don’t know. Where did you go, Gege?”
Xu Ping stared at the night sky for some time. “If I’m
not with you one day, what would you do?”
“Go looking.”
“What if I went somewhere far, far away, and you can’t
find me?”
Xu Zheng faltered before replying. “I go look for Gege.”
“What if you couldn’t find me no matter what?”
He stopped there.
Slowly, Xu Zheng bent over and clutched his head with
both hands.
A car drove past, its glaring headlights scaring a
bird perched on a tree. It let out a loud gawk
as it flew away.
Xu Ping dusted his pants off as he stood up. “Never
mind. Don’t think about it. All meaningless questions anyway.”
He grabbed his brother’s hand. “Let’s go home. It’s
late already. I still have some mock exams to do tonight.”
But Xu Zheng did not stand up when his brother pulled
him. He lifted his head up from between his hands and called, “Gege.”
“Hm?” Xu Ping hummed with a smile.
Xu Zheng shot forth from the swing like a bomb
crashing straight into Xu Ping. Caught completely off guard, Xu Ping was
knocked back a few steps and fell backward. The two brothers tumbled to the
ground.
Hurt from the fall, Xu Ping couldn’t help punching his
brother. “What the hell?!”
Xu Zheng only hugged his brother tightly without
saying a word.
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An old model of the Phoenix
The Phoenix logo
Tung Sheung Cycle Company website
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ayszhang: You might be wondering why Brother is taking me so long. That's because I've been working on the prequel of TDDUP too! I will most likely release it when it has largely been translated because of some technical (translation) issues.
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