Translator: ayszhang
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The Rental Shop Owner ch 14
14
I lived with my heart in my mouth without news of him.
But
I had to live on.
Lin
Dongfu came looking for me just before January 1st. He knew that I
was going crazy because of him. He pulled me out of the shop. It got quite cold
at that time. He said, “Qian-ge,
someone saw Shen Bin.”
“What?”
I grabbed him.
“A
cousin of mine said he saw him in Kunshan when he went to stock up on goods.”
“Kunshan?”
I had never told Lin Dongfu in great detail what he was doing because I thought
it was better safe than sorry. “Is your cousin certain? Where in Kunshan? What
was he doing?”
“Hold
your horses, Qian-ge.” He patted me a
couple of times. “My cousin used to be in the business and knows some people.
He said… He said the people Shen Bin was with were the ones you can’t afford to
offend. He saw them people and he knew Shen Bin and I were buddies so he told
me to be on the look-out. He also said Shen Bin was wearing sunglasses and a
hat on purpose like he didn’t want nobody recognizin’ him.”
I
gritted my teeth. Business? The fucking business again!
“Tell
me the truth here. What do you mean ‘can’t afford to offend?’ What was he doing
with them?”
He
glanced at me with his brows furrowed up. “I’m worried too, Qian-ge,” he started tentatively. “Those
people ain’t from ‘round here. My cousin heard stories about one o’ them
before. Shot and killed people in the North. Killed a whole family, they say. I-I dunno what Bin-ge is
doing with them either. We never really saw through him before. When he gets crazy…”
He didn’t finish.
It was cold outside to begin with and now I felt as though someone
poured a bucket of water on me.
I
bit my lips and cracked a smile. “Don’t worry too much. Maybe your cousin
mistook him. Shen Bin’s a bodyguard! Plus, if that guy really did kill a whole
family, he wouldn’t be strutting around. He’d be on the wanted list. Maybe the
word in the business was wrong!” It was to comfort him as much as it was to
comfort myself.
“You
don’t understand. My cousin told me to not tell a soul. He even came back from
Kunshan ahead of schedule. Said shit is gonna go down. I don’t think it’s made-up.”
“Hah,
what could go wrong? This isn’t a movie. Don’t fret. Go home.” Even I found my
smile to be forced.
“’Kay,
I’ll go home then. Qian-ge, you can’t
tell this to anyone.”
“Alright.
I got it.”
After
I went back inside the shop, I was shivering like a leaf.
It
wasn’t just worry but also disappointment.
If it’s real, then you, you little brat, have
really let me down. What do you think you’re doing? You think sending me off
with brimming tears is enough? What do you take me for?
Why did you pick the dark side?
Didn’t you say you wouldn’t do anything bad?
I was ready to give everything up and move to
Shanghai.
How could you do this to me?
I was perfectly fine, just a decent rental
shop owner. I ended up getting together with you—I
can’t do anything about that—but you…if you keep this up…I cannot go on
changing myself for you.
I
could not do anything. I would be scared witless if I saw a movie about gangs.
I was only a normal civilian. Damn this little brat. Maybe he had a story, a
reason? Maybe he got into an accident? I couldn’t stop myself from thinking and
my head felt like it was about to explode. Damn him.
By
the time Lunar New Year’s rolled around, there was still no news of him.
Maybe
that was it? Everything was just a dream?
I
had no idea.
×××
The brat was lying on the metal cot, moaning quietly.
Luckily,
I had a kettle in the shop. I boiled some water and poured it down his throat
when it cooled a bit. Then, I placed a cold towel on his forehead. At least I
could get the fever to go down if anything.
I
looked over his wounds. There were only two, really, one on the left shoulder
and one on the chest. The bandaging looked professional which meant he probably
came after getting treated. The blood that seeped out was most likely because
the wound reopened. It had stopped now, too. All that blood really did give me
a fright when he took off his clothes earlier.
He
came to hide out.
He had
lost even more weight and was in a bad mood, too, shouting at me when he came
in earlier, “Aren’t we the daredevil, opening doors in
the middle of the night? You ain’t got nine lives!”
His
entire air had changed and he even raised his voice at me! I didn’t deserve
this shit!
I
could not sleep though and kept changing the towel and feeding him water.
“Ge…” The brat called from the bed and
tried to sit up.
Glancing
at my watch, I saw that it was a quarter to five. I walked up to him. “Don’t
move. Just lie down!” I could not find it in myself to speak nicely.
“Ge, I…” Then he saw my stony expression
and stopped.
Seeing
him lick his dry lips, I poured another glass of water and held it up to his lips.
“No
more, ge, just how much water did you
give me? I-I wanna pee.”
“You’re just a fucking pain in
the ass, aren’t you!
” I must have
owed you something in a past life! You troublemaker.
I
usually went to the nearby public toilet at night but that didn’t seem to be an
option in this situation. “Hang in there. I’ll take you to my place. It’s
close.”
He
puckered his lips. “Is it really? I can’t hold it much longer.” He began acting
like a poor puppy again.
We
only left after I put the army jacket that I used as a blanket over his down
jacket and then wrapped a thick scarf around him. I wrote ‘CLOSED FOR THE DAY’
with some chalk on the shop door and retrieved my good old vintage ride. “Hop
on!” I pointed at the back seat of the bicycle.
The
rascal squeezed his legs together. “Geeeee!”
He
couldn’t hold it.
“There’s
no one around. Just get it over with.”
He
took a glimpse at the leftover bits of firecrackers on the ground. “I don’t
think that’s a good idea. Peeing in front of someone’s shop at New Year’s…”
“You’re
just the worst!” I parked the bike and hauled him to the public toilet. He
really needed to go but the more he rushed the harder it was. He could not move
his fatter, wrapped-up arm and he couldn’t get the zipper down for his life. I
could almost see sweat forming on his head so I had to go over and help him
with it.
And
boy, did he feel good after taking a piss.
He
even said as I aimed his pee for him, “Ge,
you’re so nice.”
“Didn’t
anyone teach you not to talk while peeing?” There wasn’t anyone to do that. I bit my lips.
“Hehe…”
“Bite
down on your teeth when you pee. If you make this a habit your teeth won’t fall
out when you get old.”
Seeing
him clench his jaw hard, I thought to myself, I wonder if I will see him turn
into an old grandpa with a full set of teeth.
After
drinking so much water, then peeing and sweating it out, the fever went down
quite a bit and his forehead wasn’t as hot. He got on my bike and wrapped his
arms around my waist. The night was dark and the wind howled, hurting a bit
when it hit my cheeks. I freed a hand to cover his. Had to keep my little
troublemaker warm.
I
suddenly thought of The Chronicles of the Shadow Swordsman and how Zhang Danfeng and Yun Lei wished for the road they were walking on
to never come to an end.
Ah…
We
arrived at my den. Too bad there were only a bed and a few things here and
there.
The
brat was peeping up and down when I was opening the door but he froze when he
went in. I gave him a shove. “Take your clothes off. I’m going to get the
blankets ‘cause you need to lie down. The bed might be moist ‘cause it hasn’t
been used for a long time. I’ll look for a heating pad. I think I brought one
over…” I suppose the nagging gene was passed onto me.
I
found the heating pad and held it and the blankets in my arms. He was still
frozen in place.
I
saw him rubbing at his eyes.
Why didn’t you come back earlier when you knew
about this all along?
“This
is our home?” He plopped onto the bed and bounced up and down excitedly. “Is
this one o’ those king size beds? Wicked!” That sick puppy was nowhere to be
found.
I
was angry. “It’s my home. Not our
home.”
I
thought he would pout and throw a tantrum but he stiffened and tucked his head
in. His longish hair blocked his eyes.
I
did not know what to do. “Um… Go ahead and take the cover off. It’s your first
time sleeping at our home.”
But
he slid off the side of the bed and crouched there, head buried in between his
knees. The army jacket fell to the floor and he was shivering. Before long, I
could hear sobs.
“Don’t
do that, Binbin, don’t. I was just kidding with you. Your ge was just kidding. This is your home. Whose home could it be if
not yours?” I crouched down too, and held his head in my arms. It was the first
time that I heard him cry. My heart ached.
He
looked up. His face was completely soaked. “I’m sorry. Ge, I’m–” He clenched
his teeth. More tears came out.
“I’m
just glad you’re back. Don’t leave again. Just stay here. It doesn’t matter
even if you don’t do a thing. Yeah? I’ll care for you.”
“Really?”
His eyes were watery and they reminded me of that look at the train station,
that look like he was never going to see me again.
“Ge, I like you from the bottom of my
heart. Can I be your little brother again in the next life?”
Next life? I stood up.
“Can
I?” I saw despair in his young eyes.
“You
listen to me here, Shen Bin. Don’t think you can go out hustling again now that
you’re back!” I shouted. “Don’t go hustling when you call me ge. What did you promise me? That you
wouldn’t go down the wrong path. But look at yourself. It’s only been half a
year and look what you’ve gotten yourself into!” I really regretted it. I
should have kept him with me.
“I
didn’t do nothin’ bad,” he said quietly but surely.
“Then
tell me, what were you doing with the murderer who killed an entire family?”
I
was only testing him but he got nervous. “What do you know, ge, and how do you know?”
My
heart lost its temperature when I saw his expression. It was real.
“What
is done by night appears by day.”
“This
isn’t a joke, ge. I won’t ask how you
found out. You just need to pretend you never knew, and pretend you don’t know
me.” His expression changed, his eyes changed, becoming as sharp as a knife. “I
needa go.”
Before
he could get up…
Slap!
I
smacked him across the face and blood seeped out from the corner of his lips
right away.
“You
bastard. Who are you selling your life for? Is it murder or arson or drugs or
bank robbery? You just got out. If you get caught again, you’ll get the death
sentence. Don’t you understand? Who’s going to save you then? Huh?”
I
grabbed his jaw roughly. I just wanted to strangle him.
He
stared at me dumbly. I must have always been too gentle with him.
“Even
if you owe someone a favour, you can repay them with money or your life, but
you can’t repay them with someone else’s money or someone else’s life. That’s a
crime. Do you understand?” I thought he just needed some education. “Shen Bin,
if you still see me as your ge, swear
that you won’t go.”
He
didn’t say anything and just closed his eyes.
Perhaps
it was just as Lin Dongfu had said. None of us really saw through him. Even I
had no idea what he was thinking.
Was
this the real him whom I knew?
Was
he really going to commit murder and arson and–
He
opened his eyes. “No one can save you in this society. Only you can save
yourself.”
He
was so calm it scared me. It was then that I remembered, this was a person who
had beaten another person to death.
“Yannoe,
Qian Jiying, you people who go to senior high and university talk about dying
when you get hit a few times, or you can’t find a job, or you get called a few
names. You think I’d ask you for help?” I watched as he stood up and began
stripping. He did it quickly and roughly, and the wounds began bleeding again.
He pointed at the scar on his back the size of a bowl. “Ding Hongmei’s man did
this with an iron when I was thirteen. Believe me, the sizzling sound and smell
of burning human flesh is not somethin’ you can ever forget. Ding Hongmei got
tied to the bedpost by him and he pierced her all over with rusted metal rings
from the curtains. I’d come back from school and he’d fuck me. I wasn’t even
160 cm tall. I wasn’t his match. He fucked me right in front of Ding Hongmei.”
“Tell
me, who was there to save me?”
“He
brought home the bread. We were living in his house, eating his food. My mom
was his whore and I was the buy-one-get-one-free.”
“He
whipped me with coat hangers. Stuck whatever he could find into me. No one ever
bothered to ask when I went to school with a limp. Even my own grandpa and
grandma treated me like a dirty piece of shit. Who was there for me to depend
on?”
“I
was only in eighth grade. Ding Hongmei was more pathetic than me, so I had to
take her place ‘cause if she died from his fucking then it’d be game over for
me.”
“If
that son of a bitch hadn’t been drunk that night and I hadn’t stabbed his
fucking cock with his taser, I’d be long dead.”
“Ding
Hongmei insisted that I didn’t testify. I was young. I still had to go to
university. Hahahaha… Yannoe, that
son of a bitch only got five years. Ding Hongmei got a fucking hole in her
womb…”
“I
was only eighteen, nineteen when he came out. We still had to live in his
house. I was so scared, so scared I couldn’t live at home. Who was there to save
me? Only myself. The me now, I can kill him with my own two hands, so I don’t
gotta be scared. Committing a crime? Still better than getting burned by an
iron.”
He
told his story while sitting against the bed, topless and emotionless, as
though the story was not about himself.
It
was probably his first time telling it.
I
had thought before that his abusive stepfather had… But the reality and my own
speculations were completely different.
I
felt like I could not breathe.
He
was in grade eight when I had just entered university. I was in a strop with my
dad because I didn’t get into a good school. I was gloomy because of the major
I got. I was depressed because I was gay. Even now, after all these years, I
was still pretty useless. I couldn’t do anything.
He
had let me fuck him. He had been shaking like a leaf on the cot. I had been
feeling good.
He
had beaten the rapist to death in the detention center. My family had arranged
that rapist.
He
said that he didn’t want people looking down on him and that he wouldn’t do
anything bad.
He
always said that I spoiled him, that I was good to him. What had I done though?
I
did not have the right to pity him. I wasn’t as strong as he. I could not have
helped him even if I knew him before. That was why I needed to make him stay
and treat him well with everything I had.
I
wrapped him in the blanket. Didn’t want it to turn into pneumonia in this cold
weather. He was quite compliant, probably was too tired from the wounds, the
fever and then the speech. Next, I sat down beside him, too.
“Thirsty?
I’ll go boil some more water. You’re still running a fever.”
He
turned to look at me with his bright, black eyes, but quickly faced another
way. “Don’t pity me. I’ll just pretend I got bit by a stray dog.”
“Yeah,
you got bit by me, alright.”
He
turned back around and this time his eyes were reddish. “You know that ain’t
what I meant. I did it on my own free will.”
I
took him into my arms. He was pretty fat wrapped in blankets.
“Didn’t
you want me to keep spoiling you? Stay and I’ll spoil you with love.”
He
spoke with his voice muffled in my chest. “You’re a good person and I really
like you, so all the reason for me not to hurt you. I actually thought about
it. Me and you can’t happen. I’m bad and you’re good. You got parents and a
proper business. And what am I? I’d never been loved and I’m happy now that I
got some from you. I snuck out this time ‘cause I just wanted to see you. Don’t
worry about me anymore. I wish you a good life after I leave. That girl,
Ah-Fen, is pretty nice to you–”
I
blocked his mouth with mine.
He
still had a fever and his mouth was unusually warm.
As
we kissed, he began crying again.
Actually,
he didn’t look half-bad when he cried—like a bunny.
“You want me to slap you again?” One of his cheeks was already swollen
from my slap. I licked at his tears gently. “What the hell are you saying? I’m
gay and there’s nothing more to it. If you don’t come back, I’m going to be
widowed.”
“But
I…” he paused. “My current boss is really nice to me. The old son of a bitch
wasn’t released yet when I went in. It was this boss who got his peeps to
finish him.”
“That’s
just to use you. And now you’re risking your life for him?” I see.
He
shook his head. “He’s a real brother, I’m telling you. He didn’t force me.”
What an idiot. Of course he didn’t force you.
He had you willingly jumping into his trap.
“What
have you done for him? Tell me the truth.”
“Nothin’,
really. He doesn’t let me do anythin’ illegal. I just guard a few of the
important figures and I don’t really get injured. You just always see it every
time I do. This time I was protecting the boss from…” He took a glimpse at me
and stuck out his tongue without finishing.
Protecting?
From what, bullets? Or knives? Who did he think he was? Jet Li or Jackie Chan?
He
never thought about spending the rest of his life with me. He just wanted a
‘had-been’ and not a ‘will-be.’
I
held my breath. I was not very happy. Judging from what he told me, this boss
of his avenged him and gave him a job, and he was super grateful. Why was that
man so nice to him? Could it be that he had some feelings…?
Fuck!
How could I be jealous at a time like this?
His
fever came back again stronger than before, which was good. Better that he lied
in bed sick so I can keep him under my watch for a week or two.
I
didn’t want to leave so I called Ah-Fen after tucking him in and asked her to
buy some fever medication, antibiotics, gauze and disinfectant. The girl tried
to nag, to which I gave a piece of my mind. I also threatened to kick her back
to the countryside if she were to blab to my ma.
He
took the meds and the fever went down after a day’s sleep. He was young after
all.
Then
I made Ah-Fen bring over some rice, side dishes and hot congee. Her eyes kept
dancing past me into the house.
Annoyed,
I said, “It’s your sister-in-law inside. You’re welcome to say hi!”
“Wait,
what?” Her jaw dropped open. She wanted to say something else but was too
scared to, so she left.
I
fed him some congee and then changed his dressing. A gunshot wound on the left
shoulder, a knife wound on the chest. I felt so bad and so angry. That
motherfucking ungrateful son of a bitch only knew to use kids. That piece of
shit!
“What
d’you say?”
“Nothing.
You just sleep.”
“’Kay.”
He was such a good kid when sick. “Ge?”
he called whiningly.
“Ge, will you not like me if I take the
bad path?”
I
really wanted to say: Of course not. However, he had already gone down the
wrong path, hadn’t he? Could I not like him, not spoil him, if he really went
into the bad business and killed people?
I
didn’t answer and he didn’t ask again.
The
bed was big so I went on and cuddled with him. He hugged me back and even snuck
his hand down my pants like a naughty child.
“Watch
it!”
He
just laughed.
Nonetheless,
he had no energy in him and quickly dozed off again. His hand was still clasped
on mine when I got up to pee in the middle of the night. I moved it off lightly
but he grabbed it again. “Ge, don’t
go. Don’t go.”
I
stayed awake with all I had but still fell asleep later in the night. I thought
to myself, I’ll have a good talk with him tomorrow or the day after and make
sure he stays.
When
I woke up the next morning, however, there was nobody beside me.
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Yea me 1st.
ReplyDeleteCongratz! :D
ReplyDeleteFinally, for once I was 1st. Just wanted I was 1st before reading the chapter.
ReplyDeleteThis chapter has everything. The wild speculation, the loving bickering, the scaring/worrisome loving tender moments and the heart wrenching recalled of childhood.
My heart breaks and was crying *gushing tears falling* a river of tears for SB.
SB is causing more worry & non-stop worrying for QJ. QJ will have horror of wild imagination of terrible thing going to be happened to SB (like dying somewhere, i.e. in the gutter, in dark alley or flowing down the river).
Did I guess it right about SB's security that looked legit upfront but questionable be the curtain, and SB got taken advantage of by his company?
AZ, thanks for the chapter; however, it is too early in the morning for a bawling secession. Is this the only most heart wrenching chapter in the whole story? Because I can't & my heart can't take any more of these sad situations. Was bad enough in CS & now here too (wwwaaaaaahhhhh!) *hic-hic-hiccup* *sniff-sniffle*.
Shen Bin's recollection made me really emotional while translating T_T such a poor guy
ReplyDeleteYeah this one is probably the saddest one! ; u ; thankfully!
But since when are you so empathetic! You killerrrrr! (Or burier?)
Ah ~ AZ,, that so.........so............
ReplyDeleteHehehehehe. Maybe a little bit of both.
Just because I scares you guys a little bit, you guys are a little weary of me. Really, I'm just a lovable perverted person.
really dark story, feel bad reading it, but it's picturing reality in a way......sooooo have a bad feeling on the ending of this one
ReplyDeleteaW Poor Shen Bin. Such a sad past. I can understand why he feels like living in the "underworld" is the only choice he has. It really is hard to rise past the circumstances you are born with. But hopefully he can see that Qian isn't giving up on him and he can turn his life around. I have a feeling something awful needs to happen in this story before it gets better = (
ReplyDeletesigh* Even though this is a story, knowing that this kind of stuff does happen in real life makes me so sad that there are people in this world that can be so cruel to others.
*takes cautious glances at eye44can1*
ReplyDeleteBetter safe than sorry >_>
But I still love you >_<b
D: is it really dark?! It's just the reality of some people out there. I mean other than that the story is pretty lighthearted to me D: maybe that's just me?
ReplyDeleteQAQ I just had a chat with the author last night because I finished translating the story. She told me its based on real life!!! It's based on a couple she knew TAT
ReplyDeletethat's what i said, picturing reality.....nah for me the interesting part is how Qian Ge with a good upbringing try to understand other people, especially Shen Bin, which is the opposite from him. And how Shen Bin despite his very painful life experience, still can trust Qian Ge just from his interactions in the video store, and even fall in love. I mean bad experience usually hard to forget, and sometimes it just seeped into one's soul and affect the personality of the person, Shen Bin is not the case.
ReplyDeleteHope the couple is living a happy life now! Domestic violence and child abuse is despicable. No one should have to fear being in their own home. Glad that author is able to tell their story. Really makes you
ReplyDeletesee that compassion goes a long way because you never know the story of
someone's life.
"Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle"
That's so true!!! It's a match made in heaven <3
ReplyDeleteYou can say that again. <3 <3 <3 We need more love in this world~~~
ReplyDeleteOMG AZ! Is that for real? I would never would have guess that it is a biography based on real life couple. I thought that the author has a great imagination to be able to incorporate some real life news reporting events with some fictional events & settings. However, I'm glad that she was able to get their story & feelings down & across for us readers to read & know about it.
ReplyDeleteAnd, I'm glad that the person (SB character representing) was able to break free from the vicious abusive childhood events that were dealt to him & did not let it get him down or self hate enough to commit suicide as a way out; however, it is still a very long road for him to go before he is ever really be completely heal. But, I'm glad that he has his loving partner (QJ character representing) there for him to love, support & not judgmental of him of his background. And, I'm also glad that he has some good buddies to worry, support & care for him.
And, yes, we need more love around in this world; however, we still have a very long road to go in this loving department.
Yeah it's true ToT I was surprised too when she told me!
ReplyDelete>u< yes I agree~ that's what makes this story so adorable! The two are totally a match made in heaven!
Crying. Honestly I won't get how binbin is feeling but damn.. Don't leave your Ge!!
ReplyDeleteWelcome new commenter! ^o^
ReplyDelete:s Jiying is going to go crazy looking for him!!!
Yes, your are right. They are very adorable couple & 100% in their relationship (hope still to this date). They went through good times & bad times but they have each other backs, support & loving each other.
ReplyDeleteSo glad you translated this story. Thank-you.
Aww <3~ You're welcome. I'm glad I came across this story too! >u<
ReplyDeleteHahaha...thanks. :) I've been planning to read early but exam stuff came up but i finally got to finish this up till now. And I'm really thankful to you for doing the translation. This story is really beautiful and got me hooked.
ReplyDeleteI can see that. Jiying, fighting.
So story was based on real life, no wonder felt so realistic. Bin bin's past is really sad one. How human being could do such thing to kid? Beating, rape, abuse...
ReplyDeleteHope his ge will find him soon and bring back to their home. Thank you Aya
I guess there are always bad people out there T_T
ReplyDeleteYou're welcome! We're approaching the climax of the story! >o< not that kind of climax though hahaha
*speechless*
ReplyDeleteand here i was sad just thinking it was an imagenary story..
ReplyDeleteNow that i know it is real, all the more tragic
TTTT-TTTT
nononononononononononononononono. No.
ReplyDeleteDammit, dammit, this chapter was... (´;д;`)
The only reason I didn't cry was coz my mum was right freaking there, but still... that was, dammit >.>
Time to wait until Sunday xD
XDDD oh dear, nii_san is having too much fun with her emoticons!!! Someone get her her pills!!! ;P
ReplyDeleteTAT It was too realistic and straightforward, it was just the naked truth! Poor Binbin...
ReplyDelete.
XD ch 15 is the climax of the story! *excited*
Really!? Awesooome~ Now i'm excited too XD
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