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Love Late Vol. 1 NSFW warning
Chapter Three
This time I slept very deeply, a dark mass without dreams. It seemed as if just holding that hand had
calmed me down.
Upon waking up, the day was subtly bright again. I blinked repeatedly. It took a long while until I came back to my senses. Ke Luo slept beside me. Although his hand was tightly held by me, his
arms encircled me.
My head was still dully aching, but the burning hot feeling had
disappeared. I had broken out into sweat
that even my hair was all wet.
Absent-mindedly, I shifted away from Ke Luo’s arms and staggered into
the bathroom. I found the on and off
handles for hot water and I drenched myself thoroughly in the steaming heat.
The longer I showered, the more clear-headed I became. I gradually remembered those crazy dreams and
my own loss of control. I realized that
I lost face yet again in front of Ke Luo.
I wanted to leave after getting dressed, but I felt that it would be
somewhat rude. Then I remembered his continuing
insistence the night before. I wrote a note
with the message, “I’m off,” placed it on his bed, and fled.
I didn’t know if it’s because it’s difficult the first time and easier the
second time around , but I recovered faster than last time; though
this was nothing to be proud of.
I was in better health. I stopped
having nightmares. I also quickly
resumed to normal life. It was no
different than before.
I won’t be as weak as to get trapped in that kind of memory with no
means of getting out.
Time had passed, and they’re all dead.
Only faint shadows remained from the dark things decades ago. They had long been tossed far behind me.
I was always walking forward, never looking back no matter what.
During noon break, I pondered in the office on what kind of pizza to
order for lunch. I was getting lazier
now. I even refused to walk a few steps
to take the elevator up to the restaurant on the top floor. Moreover, I was too lazy to think about the
menu. I might as well rely on this big,
affordable flatbread to manage the solution.
My lower abdomen, which was already not firm enough, had recently
continued to sag. On top of that, I had
the onset of the lazy disease. Dragged,
I didn’t want to go to the gym. If I go
on like this, my figure will deteriorate.
I was afraid that my chance of catching pretty boys would decrease.
As I was thinking of pretty boys, my mind jumped to Ke Luo’s image. I couldn’t help but have a great attachment,
making it hard to part from him.
Although I didn’t take into account of how cheap he was, I’d eaten a tiny
bit of him anyway. Looking back, the
aroma lingered in my mouth, so savory.
A young man was just that good…only it’s a shame he was also a top…
“Mr. Lee, there’s someone looking for you.”
“Let him in.”
It was probably the arrival of my Italian flatbread. With little interest, I brushed aside the
documents on my desk, clearing a space ready for the box.
There was a knock on the door. I
responded by raising my eyes. Taken off
guard, I swept from the corners of my eyes over a tall and straight
figure. The young man, who stood at the
door’s entrance, saw me looking up and gave a “hi,” exposing a big, bright
smile.
The feeling I had was not something I could describe while in
shock. “How did you know about this
place?”
“While you were sleeping, I took the opportunity to get your business
card.” Ke Luo replied happily.
“…” This little brat.
“I had exams the past two days, so I didn’t have free time. Today, I just happen to be passing by after
class.” He shook the bag in his hand. “I bought dim sum for you to
have.”
“Oh…thank you.” I coughed,
shifted a little, and shifted some more.
Seeing him, my bottom would reflexively feel uncomfortable with a sliver
of coldness.
Ke Luo came over on his own and pulled up a chair to sit down beside me. The bag was set on the desk. From it, he took out a few boxes of Chinese dim sum . When he opened them,
they were still steaming.
I’d always been persistent in awful, dull Western food. Upon seeing this, I became a bit
objectionable, but Ke Luo had already picked up a thin-skinned, mouth-opening
big dumpling directly in front of me. As
if evading a hidden weapon, I dodged again and again. Not letting off easily, those chopsticks
still unyieldingly charged over. I had
no choice but to open my mouth. I should
just take the entire thing and force myself to bite into it.
It was celery-flavored shrimp dumpling 1. I could taste the flavor of pork ball. I absent-mindedly finished chewing and
swallowed it down. The tasty, succulent
sensation still remained in my mouth.
“Delicious, right?”
I cleared my throat and was about to speak when another thing was wedged
against my lips. Being taken by a
surprise attack, I had no time to speak and could only open my mouth and bite
into it.
The flavor was undeniably good.
It was fresh shrimp and shark fin shao mai 2… I was unable to control my facial expression
a bit.
In my bones, I actually still liked Chinese food, but whenever I ate it,
I’d always resist it to the extreme. I
was always like this toward everything of my past, the things that belong to
that place.
At last, I abandoned myself to despair as I held the chopsticks, bitterly
immersed in eating. On the side, Ke Luo
rested his chin and watched. My manner
of using knives and forks could be described as perfect, but me holding
chopsticks was almost like holding a lethal weapon. It was fine if I just stab into it, because
it really had been far too long since I’d used chopsticks.
“You’ve gotten some over here.”
Ke Luo suddenly reached over with his finger and rubbed the corner of my
mouth.
I settled my state of mind and thought to myself: even if you just lean over and lick me, nothing would happen. It would only be a kiss. And I was afraid you wouldn’t do it.
Who knew that he’d place that finger on his own lips and extend his
tongue to lick it?
“…”
Only when I coughed a number of times did I manage to cough off the
uneasiness on my face.
Damn, so this was the so-called indirect kiss…
“Mo Yan, are you free over the weekend?”
For what? To check into a
room? This time you came to me. Let’s discuss it properly. First, make it clear who will be on the top
and bottom before continuing.
“Let’s go swimming, okay?”
Did you think I was eighteen? If
I had a tumble, then wouldn’t I have to immediately call an ambulance?
“Okay?” In one hold, he embraced
me and rubbed against me like a small animal.
I was going to die. Turned out he
can act like a spoiled child.
“I don’t know how.” One had to
firmly resist from being pulled in when facing such charms.
“Then basketball? Football? Whatever you can do is fine. If you can’t do anything, we can go bungee
jumping?”
“…” I really was thrown into bewilderment,
“basket-basketball then.”
Once I responded in confusion, I felt his arms tighten. And then his lips came near.
“Oh…”
Fortunately, he only kissed for a few seconds with his tongue reaching
in for just a moment. I could only gasp
a little, not to the extent of completely forgetting myself.
“I really like you.”
“…” I felt at odds having him say
that, with my head feverish and my chest pounding.
We’re not really getting serious, right?
***
I felt that having Ke Luo abduct me to play a game of basketball wasn’t
too awful, because there were those who were older than me on the court. It looked like there were even seventy-year
olds at least. When compared to them, I
was very high-spirited and vigorous.
Although it had been a long time since I’d touch a basketball and my
hands were already raw, I quickly warmed up as I played. A group of people varying in levels, ages,
occupations were running and jumping together.
The mess of a spectacle was indeed a mess, yet I gradually developed a blood-boiling
sensation.
In the end, I didn’t score that much and I carelessly took an elbow to
my side. But then I was in good spirit
all day long. I didn’t think that I
could be so stirred up without even relying on drugs.
I enthusiastically accompanied Ke Luo to go buy a book, a CD, a newly
arrived baseball glove, and food.
Unknowingly, I was taken back home by Ke Luo.
By the time I realized it, I was already sitting at the table, looking
longingly for Ke Luo to bring out the food.
The following days, besides work, were mixed up with him. The time used to consort with old friends at
the pleasure district were freed up and filled with something much better.
I accompanied Ke Luo to pick popular CDs that I stopped listening to
long ago, to drive all over the place for enjoyment, to hurry and catch a
movie, to play basketball while crammed together in noisy chaos with a group of
people I don’t know, to follow him in ice skating, to play hockey, to nest in his
apartment playing video games, and to make my own food.
It was as if I had simply turned back time, reliving the life of a young
person and not feeling weary.
Together with Ke Luo, time flew by quickly. We were obviously still tackling the crab
bought from a Chinese store in preparation for dinner, and, in a blink of an
eye, it already past midnight.
Spending the night together is a matter of course. There was no one who could resist a boy like
Ke Luo at all.
But the number of times of actually doing it all the way to penetration
wasn’t that many.
Every time, I had to keep on turning and rolling half the day away for
the sake of determining who was on top and who was on bottom. My strength was of no use. Once I was pinned down, I, for the most part,
turned against him and made a scene; dead or alive, not letting him top.
So the most we did were just kissing and caressing, mouth and hand
techniques only.
I had long been one among experts, full to the brim with ample sexual
experiences. Yet, that thrilling feeling
was very unfamiliar to me.
It turned out that those clearly lame romance magazines weren’t
exaggerating. My mind would go blank as
we fondled each other. The saying that
with just one kiss, the entire body would burn as if being set on fire and
such…was true.
That sort of feeling was unlike the decadence of the past when I had
looked for people to spend the night with.
It was strange. If spoken out, I can’t
clearly explain it.
It’s almost like I was in love.
But to say we’re lovers, we’re not really so. In love, both sides needed to understand each
other, yet Ke Luo puzzled me. Besides
his hobbies and his apartment, I knew nothing else of him.
I just felt that Ke Luo was quite capable. He arrived here not too long ago, but he was
getting by quite proficiently. Nothing
stumped him. There wasn’t a road he’d
passed once that he couldn’t recall. Ke
Luo often surprised me with bought dishes and raw food just to arrange a meal.
Of course, you could say that Chinatown had everything, but there were a
lot of things not just anybody can find.
And even if it was found, you may not be able to buy it.
Although he was only a small child coming here alone, he was more at
home than the majority of people here.
He had no need for me to look after him.
What made me feel more uneasy was that Ke Luo was unlike those boys I
had effortlessly bought from the past.
He knew I had money, but had never asked me for anything. He wouldn’t have much of a reaction to the
expensive gifts I gave him.
That guy, Lin Jing, would always pat me in any case and say, “Lee, you
treat me pretty nice.” However, Ke Luo
would only smile and say, “thank you,” not paying much mind.
A boy like this, once he wants to leave, I’m afraid I wouldn’t be able
to keep him from doing so. Moreover, I
really liked the feeling of him by my side and couldn’t bear to part from him.
I was old.
I had thought over how I could help him settle in this city. I had good financial resources. I knew quite a few people. I can give him a lot of good opportunities. As long as he wishes, he can have less of a
struggle compared to his classmates for several years.
Fortunately, Ke Luo was also well-behaved. Once he had the time to come find me, he’d
hang out with me all day and all night without a bored expression.
Nowadays, there were already very few boys that were devoted and faithful
like him. Not to mention, he was
sensible and considerate. When I made a
scene yet again on the bed, he would never get angry.
Although he was at a very young age, he already knew how to spoil me.
The more I was with him, the more I felt I had picked up a treasure, and
the more reluctant I was to let go.
***
“Are there messages for me?” This
afternoon, I went out. By the time I
came back to the office at nightfall, I couldn’t help but ask my assistant.
“No.” When she spoke, her face
had on a lively dimple. “You’ve asked me
five times today. What kind of message are you waiting for?”
“You ask too much.” Smiling, I
patted her desk with the documents in my hand and strode off with casual naturalness.
Today Ke Luo didn’t contact me.
I had confirmed several times. There
was no problem with the phone signal.
The phone lines in the entire office, up and down, were completely
clear. The inbox wasn’t full.
Usually I didn’t need to take the initiative, and he would naturally
come find me. Even if he was busy with
classes and exams, he would take time off to make a phone call over. This was a first to have no sign of activity
like this.
I kept waiting until I returned home at night. I really couldn’t take it anymore and, for
the first time, called his number.
After a rather long time, someone picked up on the other side. I cleared my throat: “It’s me.”
He recognized my voice, but his attitude didn’t have any special
enthusiasm. “What is it?”
I composed myself a little, “Are you busy?”
“Yeah, I bought things and am tidying up the room.”
“I haven’t seen you at all today.
I’ll go over shortly then.” I
lightly hinted in my tone.
“I’m busy. I’ll be busy until
very late.” He rejected very clear-cut.
My face suddenly became a bit feverish, and I gave a cough: “Then tomorrow? It’s the weekend tomorrow.”
“I can’t. I have a friend
visiting me tomorrow.” With a grave
voice, he seemed very nervous.
“Staying at your place?” Getting
an affirmative reply, I chuckled. I
reached for a cigarette and lighter from my pocket. “Then why don’t you come to my place
tonight?”
“I can’t.”
“Accompany your friend in the day.
Don’t tell me you’re accompanying your friend at night too?”
“Yeah, for these two days.”
“…” I lighted the cigarette and
inhaled two mouthfuls. I was silent for
a moment, then I smiled and sighed, “Well then, I’ll give you a call.”
“Don’t.”
“…” I smoked half the cigarette,
but still couldn’t think of what to say.
“Is there anything else?”
“No. When your friend goes back,
you can come find me then.”
He actually didn’t answer right away and was quiet for a while. He gave me a line: “We’ll see.”
After the phone hung up, I was still at a loss. It had crossed my mind before that Ke Luo would shift
his affection and connect with someone else, but I’d never thought he’d change
his attitude that fast. I didn’t even
have the time to adjust to the change.
I smoked two cigarettes, and my heartbeat slowly calmed down. I, then, stood on the balcony for some time.
This was nothing. Even if he
derailed a couple times, it wasn’t a big deal.
In this society, these kinds of things were common anyway.
Ke Luo was previously so attached to me.
He was such a stubborn child and wouldn’t just change heart. He will certainly come back.
***
During the two-day weekend, I just sat at home, waiting for a message
from Ke Luo. He actually wouldn’t let me
call and bother him. And I won’t go
spoil it for him. No good would come
from that sort of straightforward, forceful method. I had never been so stupid.
One must give the other person leeway in all things.
I waited anyway. I was already at
this age. I won’t be impatient. I’ll keep my composure.
These two days felt exceptionally long.
When night came, it was even raining.
I listened to the pitter patter outside, and then looked at the time on
the wall clock. I was somewhat sleepy.
Ke Luo won’t come in this kind of weather.
I had work tomorrow, so I couldn’t stay up late again like the past two
days. I let out a breath and pinched
between my eyebrows.
The doorbell suddenly rang. I was
ready to go upstairs when I heard it. I
hurriedly turned around and strode over to open the door.
As I opened the door, I realized I had forgotten myself. I didn’t even look through the front door
peephole to see who it was. In the
middle of the night, in this kind of place, being shot dead was like an everyday
home-style meal . Wasn’t this
seeking death?
I was actually so impatient that I lacked caution.
The young man standing outside the door was dripping wet. He didn’t utter a sound, but just stood at
the entrance.
I felt relieved. My body relaxed,
somewhat weakened.
“Ke Luo.”
I knew he’d come back.
“How did you get so wet?”
I pulled him in. I chattered on
as I looked for a towel to dry his hair.
He just lowered his head, embraced my waist, and burrowed into my arms.
A rare intimacy – he really does like me the most in the end.
My heart wildly jumped. I let him
hold me as I dried his damp hair. His cheeks
that were drenched from the rain were cold and wet. The ice-cold touch made me feel somewhat
sympathetic. I immediately stopped
bearing grudges against him.
If he derails, he derails. He was
only a small child anyway. Who doesn’t
have a time when they can’t help it?
In an embrace, we went upstairs in the midst of thick, heavy kisses. He wrapped around me tightly with such a
great strength as if he was going to lift me up. Being passionately caressed like this, I
almost couldn’t stand up any longer. I turned
my hand behind me, held him, and strongly sucked on his lips.
I only lost two days, yet I nearly couldn’t hold it any longer.
As expected, I was old. I needed
him to stay by my side. I was already touched
and was unable to retrieve it back.
Ke Luo kept fastening onto me, hardly relaxing, as if reluctant to even
open his mouth to speak. He severely
rubbed my back and kissed my chest sore.
He rarely became so out of control.
I
followed his intention by responding back. This time, I wasn’t difficult in
vying for the right to establish top and bottom.
It was fine to just make him happy.
To show my softer side for once was nothing.
The feeling of being penetrated was still agonizingly difficult to
bear. Moreover, today he had no
patience. He only rushed through
lubrication and then urgently drove in.
I took deep breaths, trying to relax my entire body; yet with the waves
of convulsion, I couldn’t help grabbing his shoulders.
“Slow, slow down.”
“I missed you.”
“Mm-hmm.”
“…I like you.”
“Mm-hmm…”
“I only like you…”
The rhythmic movement began. It
was so painful that I was unable to speak.
I could only adjust my breathing and touch his head.
“Don’t leave me.”
The pain hit me more than the wild pleasure. His fragmented kisses and gentle voice made
me relax significantly. I really liked
this child to the point that merely hearing his sweet speech and honeyed words
would relieve the pain.
“I love you…”
“Mm-hmm.”
“Shu Nian…”
My body chilled down all at once, rigid, unable to move.
Again he hazily called out:
“Shu Nian.”
I felt like I had turned to stone as I lay stiffly, staring at him.
“Xiao Nian…”
I swallowed and raised my hand to grab his shoulder, “Who are you
calling out to?”
He appeared to be awake all of a sudden.
Slightly startled, he opened his eyes.
To be called with someone else’s name in bed, this sort of deep
humiliation, I had never in my lifetime experienced before.
“Which slut are you calling out to?”
He immediately glared at me with fierce animosity, “Don’t you dare call
him that!”
From my throat, I made an indistinct sound, wanting to burst out
laughing, but not able to. After a
while, I hoarsely said: “Get out.”
He was silent for a moment. He
actually didn’t express anything else.
He simply pulled out, and then stood up.
After putting on his clothes, he opened the door and left.
So clean and efficient.
I looked at myself. It had
already completely softened down between my legs even though the fine hairs on
my arms were still erect. Leaning
against the head of the bed, my entire body remained naked and rigid. That kind of heat had long faded away. Only the pain from the split between my legs
stood out.
I took two deep breaths, laughed at myself, and let out a curse. Then I took out a cigarette to smoke.
Yet my hands were slightly trembling.
Fuck this shitty world.
Miracle, love. Even Lin Jing
stopped believing in this long before.
This time, I actually held onto such longing.
What a big joke.
A thirty-year old man with an IQ of an eight-year old.
I lit a cigarette one after another and carried on smoking until the sky
drizzled with light.
I was clear-headed. I had just been
careless this time. If it was ten,
twenty years ago, perhaps I wouldn’t have been so obsessed with him and would
not have shown such a big disgrace.
I had only been momentarily confused.
It didn’t matter to me. I had no
weakness. I was merely old.
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Just wanted to say thanks for working on this and sharing it ^^
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DeleteThanks for your hard work. Out of curiousity... are you a one man team?
ReplyDeleteDaww..you're welcome~<3 Basically, yes. I do have another person to proofread my translations.
Deletethank you so much!
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DeleteThank you, I am really enjoying.
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I enjoy the translation so far. Thank you for your hard work!
ReplyDeleteKe Lua is a little cruel isn't he? :)
You're welcome~<3 Yeah, I want to slap Ke Luo silly in this chapter! >_< But then love takes time to develop and they both have a long way to go. orz
Deletesuch a nice story. can't wait for more! thanks for translating and sharing ;)
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Deleteomg!! poor lee! T.T
ReplyDeleteI'm loving the story so far, dying to know what happens between them, Ke luo, you b*tch!
Anyway, thank you so much for all your hard work!
Yeah, I don't like how Ke Luo used Lee this chapter. ;A;
DeleteArgh~ he needs to hurry up and fall in love with Lee so they can be all lovey-dovey!
Thank you for the comment~<3
Thank you! Looking forward to what happens next!
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DeleteThank you for all the hard work, I'm really interested in knowing where this story is headed. :D
ReplyDeleteThat said, poor Lee :<
You're welcome~<3
DeleteYeah, I feel really bad for Lee too. ;__;